i used to blog more frequently, possibly coz i had more issues that i couldn't resolve and spilling it out helped to frame my thought process better. but now, why am i blogging less? is it because i have lesser issues? hmm seems like it. well of course i have grown out of that jc adolescent phase, but doesn't adulthood and work life have its problems too? maybe i'm thinking less now, being too contented with the way things are.

yes. my life is too stagnant. ok so that's an issue. yes it is.

i think i've said this before, for my work life, i don't think its the most challenging job yet. and its definitely not (yet) pushing me to reach my full potential. like i don't see myself critically thinking to solve a problem; reason being there is no exciting problem. or even if there is an issue, there is a standard way you should follow to resolve it. hmm. yea. and i think the only way u can avoid a stagnant work life is to work late, but what's the point in working late and doing something that isn't mentally challenging?? ok everyone says that the first year of audit is like that, and its supposed to get better over the years when you get more responsibility. yea guess so. but that's in years to come, i mean, why tekan urself at ur first year when your pay isn't justified right? passion? hmm then the opportunity cost is your social life. sigh.

well its not like my social life is very exciting either. its cyclical i tell you. once again i'm getting bored. yes i know i get bored pretty easily, be it with things or people, but I can't help it right?maybe i should stop talking, or rather talk lesser to the same few people in this current phase of my life, and find new people to talk to. i mean no matter how much you enjoy talking to someone, its inevitable that the conversation revolves around the same few topics. well i'm not saying i don't like those topics, i actually like listening about the investment theories, the jogging etc, but.. hmm somehow after a while, it seems like i'm attending lectures to gain new knowledge. how should i put it? talking about these topics will of course improve my knowledge in these areas and i can sense your passion for these topics, but sometimes after work i just wanna talk about something lighter. or maybe sometimes i just wanna talk about the topics that I wanna talk about. i know you listen, but i can tell you're not that interested, so therefore i cut myself short. and that's a problem isn't it? even though i'm a good listener, it doesn't mean i don't like to talk, actually i love to talk, tell people what i think. but i just play the role of the listener these days. sigh. i listen. listen. and then listen. what happened to those people who can listen to me?

or maybe i'm just a bit bored that my life is getting a bit stagnant. but what can i do to make it less stagnant? i thought i found the answer actually, but come to think of it, nah, it wouldn't make a difference. i'm going to be laid back about it.

I NEED SOME RETAIL THERAPY!