i'm so busy. and STRESSED!

it's so weird coz i have never felt so stressed for all my past 4 sems in ntu, but this is only week 3 and i feel as though i'm in exam mode!! ok maybe compared to my previously slack sems where i didn't bother doing my readings and doing my tutorials, this sem is a change. but changing is hard =(

and the worst thing is, i seem to be the only one so stressed! when i tell other pple that i think the readings are killing me, pple just nod. sigh. why why why. my mum says i haven't gained the momentum yet. whoa.. that's a lot of inertia to go against. i thought i worked quite hard the previous weekend alr, but i still didn't have time to do my audit tutorial, so i just read through this morning. oh but guess what! i was teh only one in my WHOLE GROUP who went in with a blank foolscape!! my other members had their foolscape full of words (note: not scribbles)!! whoa extra stress!

hmm i think i need to do something about this. it's not right. how can everyone else complete their readings so easily while i'm getting so stressed?? there must be something wrong. maybe i should do my readings in my room instead of the dining room and getting so distracted by oakey. can you believe i take ONE WHOLE DAY to read ONE CHAPTER? what an incredulously slow speed.

sigh. this stress should have come to me in year 1 when i still had control over my GPA. why year 3? everything's already set. sigh. aiyayayayayyayaya.

sian.
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