i'm so busy. and STRESSED!

it's so weird coz i have never felt so stressed for all my past 4 sems in ntu, but this is only week 3 and i feel as though i'm in exam mode!! ok maybe compared to my previously slack sems where i didn't bother doing my readings and doing my tutorials, this sem is a change. but changing is hard =(

and the worst thing is, i seem to be the only one so stressed! when i tell other pple that i think the readings are killing me, pple just nod. sigh. why why why. my mum says i haven't gained the momentum yet. whoa.. that's a lot of inertia to go against. i thought i worked quite hard the previous weekend alr, but i still didn't have time to do my audit tutorial, so i just read through this morning. oh but guess what! i was teh only one in my WHOLE GROUP who went in with a blank foolscape!! my other members had their foolscape full of words (note: not scribbles)!! whoa extra stress!

hmm i think i need to do something about this. it's not right. how can everyone else complete their readings so easily while i'm getting so stressed?? there must be something wrong. maybe i should do my readings in my room instead of the dining room and getting so distracted by oakey. can you believe i take ONE WHOLE DAY to read ONE CHAPTER? what an incredulously slow speed.

sigh. this stress should have come to me in year 1 when i still had control over my GPA. why year 3? everything's already set. sigh. aiyayayayayyayaya.

sian.
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i just finished watching kangxi. and i realised that being lazy is a horrible horrible thing.

but it's in my blood. i guess i just have to live with it. oh my. i'm even too lazy to do anything abt my laziness. what an irony.

anyway i've just finished the second wk of school! and everyday had been extremely tiring! just buying the textbooks alone made me quite stressed! yar i know i drive, but i'm also extremely superbly miserly with paying parking. so i'd rather trek up the hill and walk the long distances rather than to pay a buck. hmm but yar.

oh and there are so many readings to do!!! even though i have a 3 day school wk, i think i would need to spend 4 days preparing for it/doing my readings/doing my tutorials etc. another irony!

ok i'm lazy. lazy to go out. kristin says i should bother to dress nicely when i go to ntuc. harr but so mafan! ok but then again, i realised that there are a million and one pple who stay near me!! suddenly bishan is such a hip and happening place!

and that's apparently very very detrimental.
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i just finished this tw drama - fated to love you! it's been a super long time since i've watched tw idol drama, but this one is really nice =)

ok i still don't find ethan ruan hot, but he's quite cute la. but overall i still like the plot, it's more mature and it has deeper emotional thoughts. haha that's what i liked about it =)
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i just read on sunday times that this year, 3 singaporeans topped oxford! wow. ok well i'm not exactly very surprised considering i know a handful of pple in oxford/cambridge, and i know these pple are extremely motivated and driven. wen's going to be one of them when she graduates next year!

then i look at myself. well once upon a time, i was classmates with these pple. for those who knew me after sc, i know it's hard to believe, but i was once driven, studied hard and was proud of my grades. i mean, my grades are still acceptable. but in comparison, now i don't even bother to read up before seminars and i find it an extreme chore to do my readings. i guess i've come to a realisation that i don't mind settling for second and i no longer see the need to be so competitive. maybe i'm finding excuses for myself so that i can be conveniently lazy. to be honest, my laziness does irk me sometimes, i could be achieving so much more. perhaps i could have been one of those scholars studying abroad if i hadn't slacked in j1. or perhaps i could be on the dean's list if i rekindled the drive to excel. ok not perhaps. i know i could be if i wanted to.

i think life is too comfortable for me. when those oxford pple are mugging their guts out for that extra half mark, i would be thinking of which movie or drama i should watch next. and when they are burning the midnight oil and ploughing through the thick reference books, i choose to scan through my scanty notes to make sure i get the main gist.

sigh. why. why. why. i only have 1 more year left before i graduate. maybe i should work harder? but i must first find a reason for me to work hard. with a reason comes motivation. but what should it be?
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if u're thinking of a way to kill a car. maybe i can give you some advice coz i seem to be on a car-killing streak lately.

incident 1
what turned out to be a rewarding dust-sweeping experience turned out to be one of my biggest nightmares. you see, i was quite excited about the new magic-clean duster, so i bought one to clean up the dust that was collecting in the car. so i cleaned cleaned cleaned. then to prove to my mum how effective and wonderful the duster was, i stuck it all the way into my handbrake. and it happened. my detachable duster got stuck INSIDE my handbrake!! omg. so my mum gave me these mini jewellery pincers to kiap it out. oh. then it happened again. the pincers dropped into my handbrake and it got stuck inside too!!
what a disaster! so operation 101 started. we tried to dig it out with our fat fingers, we shone a torchlight(which was rather dim and only slightly helpful. and finally as our last hope, we used the vaccum cleaner, which successfully sucked out the feather duster! BUT the pincers were still stuck inside. so how? hmm. well i tried to drive the car up and down the slope, hoping that the pincers will fall into a spot that will allow us to retrive it easily. oh but no. it kinda disappeared into thin air. i was so worried it would cut my gearbox and send my car spinning while i'm on the PIE.
last resort: we sent it to the servicing centre just now. the technician told us they'll have to dismantle both front seats, the gear box etc etc to take out that tiny pincers. oh dear.
on a slightly brighter note: i drove the car to school yesterday and it seemed perfectly fine.

incident 2
i drove my mum's car to send my bro to camp on sunday night. so while my bro alighted, i pulled up my handbrake. then after driving for about 10minutes on the PIE, i realised my handbrake light was on!! but the funny thing was, the car didn't seem to be encountering much friction. and i tried to push my handbrake down, it was already down. but why was my handbrake light on?
to my horror. i realised that the handbrake was only HALF down!! coz my spectacle case was blocking it!! yes. i felt so stupid. ok i still feel stupid. yar and the worst part is, i was driving at 90km/h with the handbrake half up!!

ok. yar so if you wanna kill a car. you can seek my advice. btw did i mention i once did a parallel parking with my handbrake up? sigh.

my mum says i am a sheng1 huo2 bai2 chi1. sigh.

oh btw UP is a great movie! =D
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wen chelly kyna and i met up on tues for our much-anticipated sushi kikuzawa buffet!! omg it was damn good! i had goosebumps after i ate my first salmon sushi(and i'm not exaggerating!). i dunno what's the name of the cooking technique whereby the sushi chef uses this bunsen burner thingy to cook the sashimi till it's half cooked. can anyone enlighten me? haha

i love sushi! =D

oh and yesterday i went to the airport to send kristin off. sigh i should have dressed better; but i didn't expect to see so many pple at the airport! both my parents asked me the same question when i told them i was gg to the airport - 'you're gg to the airport dressed like that?'. and i replied without hesitation 'yar, for a short while only mah'

oh but guess what. i was so embarrassed. i was in tshirt, shorts, and slippers and my fringe was clipped to the back. i looked as though changi airport was next to my house. my mum added another sentence 'you totally killed the image you've built up'

thanks.

so those pple who are studying abroad have left. ok wen's still in sg, but she'd be leaving soon too. and school's starting for me. yikes.. i'm having pre-school blues. so sad.

nvm i shall look forward to tmr's tiong bahru breakfast! i hope we manage to identify which ones are the good ones. yum yum =D
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