sometimes i wonder if i'm too rational.

i woke up super early to send mari zong and cheese off this morning, and i couldn't help but to have that 'what-if' thought. what if i didn't change my mind? i could have been on that plane to sydney too! and today would have been a brand new chapter of my life! imagine, a life in australia and an entire slack semester!

but nope. i'm stuck in singapore. why? coz i rationalised it out.

i told myself that
1) it's way too expensive!!
2) i'd miss my family and oakey!
3) i just got a new car and it doesn't make sense to leave it parking at home
4) aussie accounting standards aren't applicable to sg
5) i can't do housework
6) i'd miss my big 4 interview (which didn't turn out to be a problem anyway)

but as i sent them off this morning, i really wished i was on that plane too! sydney is such an awesome place! and mari zong and cheese would be excellent company! well, of course it doesn't help that my trip to shanghai is cancelled and i'm STUCK IN SG THIS HOLIDAYS!!

and there's no time to go on a holiday! oh i can't find anyone to go on holiday with me! why is everyone so busy? sigh.

does anyone want to go on a holiday? i'm desperate! (i don't mind going to any city in the world)
zong/mari/cheese, can i crash ur apartment in sydney? hmm but i'd probably live in regret after seeing ur place. aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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