ok actually i don't feel like that anymore, but i did feel rather *, and it's hard to say whether i'd have this notion again.

pls stop commenting and insulting me. pls stop it. it's almost as though i was being controlled, and that's definitely not something i can tolerate. and pls stop assuming too, it's harsh.
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bleh. i can't believe my english got criticised. bad grammer. O M G. well, i admit there were some careless oversights on my part, but bad grammer?? i can't believe it. i can't take it lying down. bad grammer?? i can't even remember when was the last time someone commented on my grammer. this is kinda frustrating. kris admited she was a little anal when she corrected my statement of purpose but it wasn't her fault coz i asked her to edit for me, but STILL, bad grammer??? it's insane. well, yes as much as you have observed, i really cannot accept it when pple criticise my grammer. even if i do commit a grammatical error, don't tell me coz i probably know i did it - careless oversight.

ok, so this is a reinforcement of another bad point of myself (not that i haven't already discovered it, but i guess i've been trying to conceal it and play it down) - i cannot accept criticism, especially in areas that i know i'm good at or areas that i've put in a lot of effort.

anyway, kris was really sweet today and yes i was touched lol. she bought me cedele carrot cake from raffles city. at first she wanted to get my fav tutti frutti, but there wasn't any in both outlets, so she bought carrot cake instead, another one of my fav cakes lol. but she really didn't have to, i guess she did it out of goodwill to show her appreciation. she said she bought zong banana chocolate cake too haha. btw kris also bought oakey his beloved doggie biscuits on fri. so thanks lots kris! i really appreciate it, i really do =) and you don't have to buy food for me anymore la, i'd still give you lifts even without the food - i'm not like zong hahah.
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i am indeed a very private person. i know, or rather, i think i appear a very chatty person sometimes, but there would be some moments that i do prefer my quiet moments. and when i'm having that moment, i'd just be quite apathetic to almost everything. it's not because i'm not interested in what you're saying, but sometimes, i'm just trying to sort out my thoughts.

i think a lot, but i don't perceive myself to be emo. i think to clear my thoughts, especially when a lot of things come crashing in at the same time. i think i'm a rational person, or at least that's what i aim to be haha.

i usually don't talk about every single thing i do, so i guess i don't expect pple to do the same to me. but if you wanna tell me, i'd listen, and if you don't, i won't probe either. maybe that's why i find myself on diff wavelengths sometimes.

kev is trying to psycho me to get fb on msn. aiyo here we go again. and i'm telling him that the only good thing i see in fb is the bday reminder. i feel so bad forgetting kok's bday; he had to remind me that i was 5 days late =X i think countless pple have tried to con me to use fb. i rmb chelly was trying to psycho me for 1 hour during the hols. goodness. and fudge offered to set up a fb account for me. it's scary how pple are so addicted to it.

(emilia) says:
i'd consider it again after exams
(emilia) says:
hahah
[b/-\i].kev says:
haha gosh u
(emilia) says:
coz currently, i just see fb as a stalking device
[b/-\i].kev says:
yar actually quite lar
[b/-\i].kev says:
but jus limit the access to ur profile loh
[b/-\i].kev says:
but its honestly quite interesting seeing how some old frens are like now
[b/-\i].kev says:
like i wudn't otherwise have found out abt **** bf n all haha
(emilia) says:
stalker!
[b/-\i].kev says:
i confess it haha. but i still prefer to remain closeted haha

fyi, when friendster was the in thing in sec school, ching told me that friendster was so yesterday coz everyone in canada and america were already using fb. and now she tells me that fb is obsolete. lol.

kev just reminded me how old i am. or rather, how academically old i am:[b/-\i].kev says:
aft tt one more yr rite. haha. so fast!

internship - job interview - graduate - work! now i need to squeeze in time for a grad trip. since zong and kris are gg for exchange, i doubt they'd wanna spend extra money on grad trip. lol. i wonder if br and ls are still up for the trip. haha. last time i asked, they said duh lol. see how then. i think ap and mari would be interested too hahah. oh at the very worst, there's still the avid-traveller pam. lol.

and now kev is telling me abt his squash trip that day. lucky him! i really need to play badminton or squash asap. oh yeshhh found a new squash kaki, kev!
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today i discovered a few things lol

1)kristin is a really good fluffer. she's the only person i know who can say nonsense with so much conviction and enthusiasm. it's what guys would term 'imba' lol

2)apples can be rotten sometimes. they look really nice on the outside, but they're actually super rotten and messed up inside. tsk tsk

3)i've been sleeping late for a long time now. i can't rmb the last time i slept before 12am. so i shall hurry off to bed now. i can really see my eyebags coming out =(
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and just when you think that nobody is looking.. think again. taking the long mrt rides back from school sometimes makes me feel like barfing. and what's worst is that i've seen it happen more than once

1) Digging for gold
sometimes, pple pick their noses. and if that's not bad enough, sometimes pple dig their noses as though they're really digging for gold. and what do they do with the newfound gold? i can't bear to see what happens for the thought is too revolting. but what i can say is that i've realised that there are a lot of fingerprints on the handrails. but usually when this happens, most of them don't bother to see if there are any onlookers. that's the part that creeps me out the most. more often than not, this happens on those priority seats or those 2 seaters. and that's very much the reason i prefer not to sit on those seats. so when kristin told me that was her fav spot, i was really quite appalled haha

2) Fly
k this is a one-off incident. once there was this old man (ard 70+ years old) who sat down and embarrassingly realised that he didn't zip up his fly. so he looked around surreptitiously to see if anyone was looking in his direction before slowly moving his bag onto his lap to cover up his act. well, then of course he proceeded to zip it up. i think the girl next to him realised it coz she was desperately looking away and well, haha the old man didn't realise that diagonally opposite him was me, and i saw the whole process. lol

3) Snowing
k wrong word, i think a more appropriate word is 'flaking'. and it happened just now when i took the train back to bishan. i really really felt my stomach twisting inside out when i saw it coz he just kept doing it for at least 15-20mins! it was this man(maybe late 50s) with a relatively thick coat of hair. i realised that he kept twisting his fingers around his hair and then dusting his fingers on the floor. i starred harder and he was still completely oblivious to my existence coz he kept doing it. he was having very bad dandruffs! he kept peeling his scalp or sth (i really don't know what he was doing), and it was so gross coz he was littering the mrt floor with his dandruff! then came the finale that made my goosebumps raise. when it was amk, he reached into his back pocket and i thought to myself 'yes! he's getting off!' but oh no.. he took out a comb and tilted his head to the empty seat next to him and combed. snow in the mrt! and to my horror, the empty seat was laden with white flakes which he indifferently swept it onto the floor. the mrt door opened and an unsuspecting victim sat on that previously snowing seat. poor chap. i really wish i could send him my condolences.

and so just to reiterate my point. when you think nobody is looking, really, think again and again and again. coz there's ALWAYS someone looking. i realised this usually happens when i take long mrt rides to non-town areas. maybe it's coz there are lesser pple. gross.

fine maybe it's not just limited to public transport. pple do gross stuff in their cars too. just because you're the only person in the car doesn't mean nobody can see ur actions. the car in front can always use the rearview mirrow to see what the car behind is doing. so yea lol, do be careful. lol
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today's oakey's FIRST birthday! and we had a mini birthday party for him just now =) i initially wanted to get him a red bowtie for his present, but i didn't think they have bows made specially for dogs, and human ones are wayy too ex! so in the end, i just DIY-ed a birthday hat for him! ooh he looks so cute! we bought him a fruit cake and various freshly baked doggy biscuits! we sang a bday song for him while my bro played the piano. my sis took a vid of it and oakey was so cute! he was wagging his tail like mad and at the end of the song, he gave a little bark =)

too bad my dad took the cam and had to come home late, so below are some photos taken by my sis and my phones haha




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pam and i ate at orange lantern just now lol. and guess what we saw???

initially we walked in and we had this short convo:
pam: eh how come the crowd here is so old ah?
me: no la, i think they're having some company function, those must be office pple
pam: really meh? companies come to such places?
me: of course la. what else can it be?
pam: i dunno, speed-dating?
me: what?? speed-dating?

then 2 of us starred at the long table next to us and realised that the guys and girls sat on separate rows! and they all seemed to be engaged in some sort of superficial conversation with 'sincerity' and 'earnestness' being written all over their faces.

not long later, we saw them take out a piece of paper to scribble some stuff. pam said they were exchanging numbers. O M G. after which, the guys moved one seat down. tsk tsk.

over our dinner, we observed a particular guy, a rather interesting character we concluded. and now let me share with you some tips on identifying if your date had been forced by his mum to attend such matchmaking sessions:

1) has a very sian face from the start of the session
2) starts to fold his arms across his chest
3) no longer has eye contact with his date
4) turns his body at a 45 degree angle
5) looks in every direction but his date
6) turns his body at a 90 degree angle
7) takes a deep breath when his date goes to the washroom
8) leaves abruptly after his date returns from the washroom and leaving her stranded

of course there were other couples who were yawning and looking obviously disinterested, but there were others who were really putting out their best. pam commented that the girls were all of ok standard, but the guys were well..haaha.. not. kk i mean they looked honest, but they're old.. at least 38 years to 40+. pam emphathised with the girl who was yawning after seeing who her 10minute date was. lol.

oh anyway did i mention that a lot of pple won't be around for my 21st even thought it's ironically the hols and end of internship?
pam - shanghai
kristin - shanghai
shiqi - aus
ching - hk
wen - tentatively uk
gan/zong - iic event
rightttttttttt so 7 of my good friends aren't going to be around. nice. did i leave anyone out?
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sian it's a bright tues morning and what am i doing? having a very 'dangerous' lesson with the most loserfied person in the world and being very pissed with my 4% D+! i wanna burn my script and kris wants to tear it. kris and i both feel like killing pple, or rather, a very specific anal person. what an ass.

'i hope this is a good wake up call' he just said. omg. someone pls stab him at the back.

ntu is having a very violent streak lately, thanks to what happened yesterday:

"Dear Faculty, Staff and Students of NTU,

It is with a heavy heart that I inform you of a tragic incident on campus. A final year student from the electrical and electronic engineering school attacked a professor this morning, 2 March 2009. (specifically, the student stabbed the prof at his back, slit his own wrist and jumped down from the 5th floor!) The student subsequently fell off the linkway between S1 and the Research Technoplaza and passed away. The next-of-kin of the student and professor have been notified. Out of respect for the parents of the student, the university will release names officially after the parents have been informed face-to-face of the full details. The professor is receiving medical treatment for his injuries.

We are all deeply shocked and saddened by what has happened. The matter will be investigated thoroughly. I urge the university community to rally together at this difficult time and do our utmost to help the student’s family, the professor and his family, and those traumatised by the incident.

The University’s counselling professionals have been mobilized. For help, do contact the Counselling Centre crisis hotline at 9721-8066. Media queries can be directed to the Corporate Communications office at 9616-4844. The school is assisting the police with investigations.


DR SU GUANING
PRESIDENT"

zhilin mentioned that she never knew it was ok to stab profs at the back, and she said that if we had a poll of which prof we wanted to stab, a particular one would definitely top. neither of us have heard of a student that doesn't dislike him. i think he better wear a safety vest for the rest of his life in ntu hahaha. oh my we sound so evil and devious. i hope i won't get into trouble. ok disclaimer. all this is just purely crap talk, dun take it into account!

sian i'm so sian. i think i'm PMS-ing super badly. i'm so stressed! SIAN! i need to destress!! sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian. someone pls save me!!
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i just watched marley and me! great show =) and after watching it, i love oakey even more now! chelly, i know you only watch blockbusters, but you really should give this show a shot

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