it had been a really hectic week, especially with network stuff. sigh. econs odyssey, nobody seems very interested in it, i don't blame them though.. BUT ALL THE SAME THEY SHOULD JOIN. i mean, just to help me out or sth la, it's only 15 mins right? how much can you study in 15 mins? sigh.
so i really want to give a BIG THANK YOU to anna, kityeng, huizhong, wen and sam for agreeing to join the odyssey. thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks!
next week is going to be an even busier week..i seem to have something on every day. crap. so busy busy busy busy busy.
right.
so anyway, i went for arts festival just now. it was erm, quite shit la, only MAD was nice. go birong and germaine!! you gals danced so well~ lolz.
well, of course the main reason why i had a good time just now was coz i met up with old friends! woohoo!! finally met chichi after like 4 months?? ANCIENT. so it was really great! RJC ROCKS! hahahaha. RJ RJ RJ RJ RJ!
well, we ended up having some 4sy reunion thingy coz we had about 1/4 the class there - feli, pam, shiqi, stef, juli, ade, birong, germ, chichi and of course, me! haha. yupz, that's 10 pple. cool!
weijin said that we were damn noisy, but it had an advantage coz he kept him awake during the performance. hahaha. well, i guess it's SC culture, or perhaps it's just the uncontainable excitement of meeting up with old friends. haha. somehow, we ended up taking loads and loads of photos. hahaha.
anyway, RJ ROCKS! hahahaha.
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life in school has been quite sian lately. i am damn busy with network stuff, suffering from post-exam syndrome and my social life in s72 isn't exactly going very smoothly either.
everyone's energy level is damn low nowadays and this is sick. i hate it. yar i know it's time to hit the books and get serious about studying, but i don't think that is a valid excuse for not talking to anyone in school. frankly speaking, life has been quite miserable.
i am not referring to anyone specific here, it's just a general impression that i am getting. why can't we laugh and joke around, i mean, there is no end to studying and worrying, so why not spend the little time left just take a break and laugh?
if this goes on, i will hate going to school. probably disappear from the classbench. sucks.
daryl and zhouhao were talking about gender segregation in our class the other day. yar, i know. daryl attributed it to the distinct cliques that have formed, i kinda agree with him. i hate this tutorial-lecture system; all we do is just move from classroom to classroom. i wish i had a fix desk and a fix sitting partner, then you get to interact more with everyone, and not just pple from your so called 'clique'. it will be so much more interesting to go to school isn't it? get to know your other classmates and all.
at this point in time, i don't hate anyone in s72, yupz, anyone at all. no hate at all. i was just being childish coz everyone is actually very nice. well, maybe we can just joke a little behind that person's back, but no hard feelings.
anyway, MY POINT IS let's not be so sian and stick around in our little cliques everyday k? well, even if we DO stick to our little cliques, TALK and have FUN. yupz, guys should mix with girls and not just isolate themselves as though they are some contaminants, coz that's so LAME.

missing 4sy more and more...
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it's my bday today. wasn't exactly a very happy day for me until a few minutes ago.

i want to thank lots of pple to sending me their well wishes, either via sms or saying it to me in person, it's all really thoughtful and sweet of you all.

lisa was the first to wish me happy birthday coz she thought my birthday was on the 17th, haha. but it's ok, coz i am really surprised and happy that she remembered my birthday.

then thanks to charlotte, huiwen, kevin, glori, shiqi, birong, felicia, wenli, lijia, pam and grace for sending me smses, to wish me happy birthday. then thanks to the anna and kityeng for the necklace and earrings, really really nice! thanks!

then thanks to s72 for the taitai kit, which comprised of 9 items which i usually use, namely, lipbalm, eyedrop, facial wipes, hello panda, hand moisturise, face mask, a dotted umbrella, a bin and a travel pillow. yar. haha. my mum thought that you guys were really cute to come up with such stuff. btw, i know the present isn't from the class, but i am not too sure who the kit is from, so pls tell me k? really want to thank these pple. i only know there is daryl, bean and kev who contributed to it.

i know you guys were just trying to waste time during pw, but i was really touched when 9 of the guys came up one by one to the front to give my each present. really really thanks a lot. it was one of the best presents i have ever received.

well, once again, i anticipated late presents this year, once again from the same few pple, shan't name them. seriously, i can't remember a single year of our ancient friendship, that i received a present on time. SIGH. why on earth do i have friends like these?

well, ching, i know you sent me a birthday card, but i haven't received it yet.. hopefully it comes soon though. but i will just thank you here in advance. thanks ching!

well, as i said earlier, despite everyone's well wishes this morning, i didn't feel that happy. wasn't happy at all when i went to school in the morning. hated my birthday. but now it's all settled and i am glad it's all resolved. ended up wasting one good day, didn't manage to do any work today. gg to get really puffy eyes tmr. damn it. gtg sleep now. night!

and thanks everyone! if i missed you out, really sorry.
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just finished the 6th book of the harry potter series. what can i say? i was disappointed. indeed i was.

there was so much anticipation, well, maybe not so much from me, but at least i was quite happy when the postman came with my copy yesterday during lunch time. and this time, i didn't procrastinate for half a year(like what i did the previous book), and started reading yesterday.

anyway, this book isn't that nice. shan't give any spoilers here, but all i can say is that i seem to have lost my interest in harry potter. yes. lost interest. can't believe i am saying this, but indeed it seems the case. i was actually BORED reading the book. caught myself stoning for quite a while. but i forced myself to finish the book anyway, couldn't afford to leave too many books left incompletely read; i have yet to finish the da vinci code, haven't touched it for a week now.

but i think i will just continue to watch all the hp movies, it's more or less an obligation now. rowling really really should consider the children who read the book, the psychological trauma and all. it's getting so dark and irritating.

btw, my maid is finally here. three cheers! but sadly, she's only gg to be here for a week, coz she's gg back for a one month holiday before offically coming back to work for us. it's nice having a maid again XP
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thanks s72. first up, i wanna wish bean a happy 17th birthday! XP

yar, then just wanna say thanks to s72 for buying the ice cream cake and celebrating huizhong's, gavin's, bean's and my birthday today. haha. even though it's like 6 days premature, but thanks anyway, it was a nice surprise.

wanted to do a little experiment, but i had to give it up coz of this. actually, the results were more or less predictable; i know them too well.
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finally. blogger is damn lag today. took 5 minutes to load this page. sheesh.

a speck of white dotted the sides. dirty. a speck of white was in front of me. a little annoyed. i don't hate it, just get a little irritated. it shall be fine. i hope.

one person. it's so carefree and happy. i like to be alone now. like alone alone. you get it? so nothing's set for now.

something magical happened today. it was just a split second. but it is enough. miracles do happen, especially when you least expect it.

it's no longer dark in the capsule. not that light can pass through, but its eyes managed to adjust. the silk around it was soft and comfortable to lie on. it smiled again.
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chew chew chew. basking in the warm sunshine in a forest, it chewed on the green platform it laid on. 'what a great day' it thought. munch munch munch, from day tonight, growing fatter day by day. those were happy days.
cycles passed and age caught up. it started inching its way around, eyelids getting heavier and heavier. nooooo, not now, not in the middle of summer, it was too much a sacrifice to start now. but it couldn't help it, nature's exerted an unfeeling pressure on it. it succumbed, closing its eyelids gently.
'it's time', it thought, and it woke up, after clearing it's thoughts. it settled down in a secluded area and commenced its task. temptations are merely fleeting emotions. yes, they are.
others had started, betraying its trust and bond. whatever. a pack of lies. incessant lies. the world is full of hypocrites and conmen; never believe in them. a nest of white pigeons cooed noisily on the tree top. as if in immediate response, the brown ones, replied back. the meditating silence was rudely broken.
trapped. dark. black. it could see nothing, nothing at all. it tried to move, but it found itself immobile. stuck. it was concealed in a capsule. it pushed its leg forward, it felt soft and smooth. that was the only comfort it found.
'this is for my good' it tried to convince itself, 'i shall persevere'.
it closed its eyes and suffered quietly, thinking of the fun it previously had.
darkness. black. claustraphobia. it is all worth it, it persuaded itself. it didn't know how long this was going to continue, all it knew was that when it was time, it would be free again, away from all the cackles.
it shall fly back to it's humble abode. safety is assured.
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i am in quite a shit mood now. SO GET LOST!
GET LOST GET LOST GET LOST GET LOST!
SHUT UP!
this is so so so so so highly annoying.
crap the hell outta here.
so. this is it. FINE. stupid idiots.
STUPID STUPID IDIOTS.
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it's sat again. love it. went to orchard with feli and birong today!! super super happy! it has been forever since the three of us last met. but i am glad all of us managed to squeeze some time to just do some decent catching up. no doubt the time we spent together just now was restrained, the hours were golden and worth it.
we met at about one just now and it was quite funny la. coz feli was showing her vj friend around wisma and was on her way to meet us, when the entrance that separated the mrt and wisma suddenly closed!! hahahaha. damn funny! apparently, the alarm was triggered or something and feli was trapped in wisma. hahaha. this funny guy was taking a photo of the closed door. so lame.
anyway, went to crystal jade at scotts and spent most of our time there chatting and doing loads of catching up. it was fun. haha.
went to far east to take some neoprints after that. aiya, why do birong and feli need to have classes today?? mood spoiler. oh well, it was great to meet up with them again anyway.
hmm, i haven't met chichi for SOO long! almost three months now, wonder how is she now. must meet up with her soon and do more catching up.
oh yes, found a morning activity now! hehe. quite excited about it XP
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the following is a dedication to scgs and sc girls.
sc sc sc sc sc sc sc sc
rocks~
hahaha. went back to sc for maddcap just now. it's all there. all at 190 dunearn road, ten years of my growing up. i love sc. when you are in it, you don't treasure it, you hate it, you despise it, but when you are out of it, you grow fond of it, love it and hold it dearly to your heart. it's true i suppose, at least it is for most of my friends and myself. sc had been a part of our life and it will be forever more.
scgs
scgs girls are unique. definitely without question. when you are in it, you don't believe what they say, have your doubts, think they are mad. but now you are out of sc, you are able to relate to what they say. it's true. and i am glad about it. haha. good or bad, it's all sc culture. i was sent there at 7, lived in the influence of miss heng, basked in the history of sc, picked up the culture and values of our school. whether i like it or not, it's all part of me.
scgs
visited the primary school just now with wen and chelly, it was nice. real nice. swell really. the facilities were awesome, ponds, cactuses, colouring corners, fitness centres. i wished i was back in primary one, pri 1G. but sadly, my old classroom had made way for something else; it's physical presence gone, but i know it's there. shall always be there.
1G 2SE 3SE 4SY 5SE 6SE
1/5 2SY 3SY 4SY
shall always be this way.
sc girls. you know one when you see one. it's true. it's not just the english, that's only secondary. sc girls. you know one when you see one. fellow sc girls, i am sure you know what i mean. it's just this connection that you have, this subtle telepathic force that had developed when we were together in school. it might be rusty, but it won't fail.
sc girls
made a big discovery tonight. both chelly and shiqi agree. hahahaha. can't really say it here though coz i might just lose my life when i go back to school. it's far too dangerous to leave it online. sc girls, if you want to know what is it all about, feel free to ask, coz only you are privileged to know XP
revisited our classic toilets just now. i love sc toilets!! i took 3 photos of it with my phone just, it's power was just too overwhelming. another part of sc culture - the toilets. clean. tiled. always has toilet paper. never have to queue coz there are 10 cubicles in each toilet. 5 sinks. 1 sitting area beside the sink. screaming. gossiping. laughing. sc toilets. oh yes, there aren't cockroaches too. unlike hci. my teachers used to tell me that our seniors would go back and miss sc toilets, and i was quite cynical about that. but now, as a graduated sc girl myself, i must say it's true. once you step into sc toilets, you really won't be able to settle for anything less than that. sc toilets.
i was waiting at the general office for my mum just now. then this parent came up to shiqi and i and started chatting with us. he's damn nice haha. he was from hci also, but he was from the first batch, so that makes him our grand grand grandblah blah senior. ancient senior. haha. he's damn zai. he was once a pilot at the air force, then now he works for the ministry of foreign affairs. nice chap. was telling shiqi and i about president scholarship interview tips. haha. i am quite sure he is one of the important pple who decides who becomes the president scholar. but pam had to come along and scare him away. haha. that guy is quite nice. i was trying to convince him to come back to hci for maf, and he said he might consider. coz something like he received an invitation to go back last year, but he didn't in the end. but i think he seems quite interested to go this year. yay! hope to see him there! nice nice nice guy.
btw, he married a scgs girl. hahahaha.
scgs girls
did the sc cheer just now. memories. we used to do it all the time. i think other schools hate our cheer and get damn pissed when we do it, especially the screaming part, but who cares? it's sc we are talking about. S C G S.
let me emphasis this point. sc girls are unique. you know one when you see one. you put two random girls together, you know which one has sc blood. it's exclusive.
scgs
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it's quite amazing - i haven't updated for more than half a month! cool! haha. block test is -finally- over and i am glad about it. i feel super disconnected and isolated from the world. oh yes. i feel quite cheated too; on wed, i tried to turn on my comp but i couldn't coz there was something wrong. then i tried again on thurs, it still didn't work. the same thing happened on fri. then i gave up trying and accepted the fact that i was going to be isolated from the virtual world over the long weekend. then guess what? last night when i tried to turn on my comp again, it WORKED! so cheated!! coz during the weekend, i was feeling real bad. REAL bad. like there was no outlet after studying, and i couldn't listen to my precious mp3s also. it was just bio and me. me and bio. bio and me. yes, you more or less get the idea. faced my notes, tried reading lines on my couch, nothing got in, got quite moody and irritated. the sweltering weather didn't help. my weekend was a mess. had bio today - sure fail. i just hope i dun do THAT badly. structured was bad, i read the qns and i was like -_- the topics tested weren't even in our studying perimeter. it was just pure crapping. after the exam, verified just 2 random questions and i got them wrong. didn't want to verify anymore.
went out with anna and kityeng after bio. watched 'be with you'.
!!!!!!
it ROCKED!! i love the show so much i tell you. it's one of the very very few shows that can make me cry. yes. me crying. don't be shocked. all three of us cried. it was really nice.
great show.
loitered a bit more then came home coz anna had to go home for dinner. finally back online. i feel connected again. haha
hmm.. wondering if i should get a ipod mini or shuffle. glori's fren's fren's fren has this special offer for the ipod mini, but i have to wait for abt 2-3 weeks. that's an awfully loooong time. any comments?
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