i am super exhausted now. spent a good saturday training to become a rag and bone woman. sigh.
woke up early at 730 this morning, dragged myself out of bed and headed down to school. i was late, but considering that at the time i reached school at 840( we were supposed to meet at 830). zhouhao smsed me and told me he just woke up and he was going to be late. hahahaha.
anyway, we stoned at lt 2 until about 930 coz they had to settle admin stuff. then zhouhao came at 910 and looked like an ex-convict. oops! no lah, just that he looked quite dazed.
so the day started as hci flooded bishan.
i was in jiashee's group with lingyee. yifang went off to join her other friends in another group and zhouhao was assigned to the loaders and containers group. throughout the week, he had been gloating about his 'fortune' coz he thought he could simply hide in the shade and listen to this mp3 player while accumlating cip hours. apparently, he thought that all he had to do was to stay stationary at the truck and just throw newspapers into it. it was half true. but the thing is, his job was not slack at all coz he had to carry the whole block's newspaper collection into the truck. and it was A LOT of newspapers. just one block and you can die carrying it. i almost laughed my head off when i saw what he had to do.
anyway, we were assigned to the older blocks, so there weren't lifts at every floor. i almost died. we had to do 10 blocks and it was terrible i tell you. simply terrible.
the first block was quite good coz our collection was very poor; we didn't know we were supposed to knock on doors so when we saw an empty corridor without newspapers, we just happily moved on. but luck did not stay coz then exco incharge told us we had to knock on doors. the second and third blocks were killers, murderers in disguise. the blocks were soooo lonnggg!! and the residents were super generous!! sick!! we had to carry stacks and stacks and stacks of newspapers from one floor to another. it was damn tiring. by the time we cleared these blocks, my hands and legs were wobbling. haha. but lingyee and i managed to convince ourselves that we were losing weight this way. haha. but i think i just gained the weight i lost after eating yakun bread just now -_- thick slices of melted butter. tsk tsk.
had lunch at j8 at yoshi. and then continued on our arduous task. the afternoon session wasn't that bad, we finished our first block in 20 mins. record time! haha. the subsequent blocks were quite small, so we finished quite early. but rejoice wasn't in sight coz we had to help another group do their block. sigh. and that block had A LOT OF NEWSPAPERS! there was this super enthu maid who gave us a tower of newspapers; it was a literal tower. then there was this other aunty who was even more enthu. she gave us newspapers, a pot, a standing lamp, a globe and a box of magazines. her unit wasn't on a lift floor!! so lingyee and i had a difficult time transporting all these stuff down.
we finished all our assigned blocks at 430. as we heaved a sigh of relief and flirted with the thought of returning home, they told us that there was a 80% chance that we had to go help out another group coz they had 3 blocks left. i almost cried. but thank goodness, lady luck was showed us mercy and we could go home. xP
i walked home from the dismissal block and reached home before 5. bathed and slept.
there is sentosa outing tomorrow with the class. i was quite excited about it the whole week, but now, somehow i feel quite sian. dunno why also. maybe coz i am not going to play bball, frisbee or vball? dunno lah.. i think i will bring some manga to read. anna says she might not go and kityeng has to leave at 6pm. i will be left alone. it's true that i can hang out with the guys, but aiya. see first lah. maybe i will leave at 6pm with kityeng.
kityeng and anna were supposed to come to my house for a sleepover tomorrow, but now i guess it's impossible. aiyaya.. and i went to ntuc just now to buy some chips and drinks. nvm lah. i guess in a way it's better. tmr will be a tiring day, so a good night's rest will be good. i think the guys are still having a sleepover, i wonder how it will be like without girls this time. i am quite sure villain will be devasted when he knows that none of the girls will be sleeping over. hahaha. i wonder whose house they will be bunking in tomorrow, or maybe they will just camp at the monorail station like what bean suggested. haha. good luck to them man! i bet they will be bitten by mosquitoes like mad. hahaha.
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the week is finally over and i am glad it is. it had been a rather tiring week and having 4 hours of prac in one day was terrible, at least it was for me.
the first thing we had yesterday morning was chem practical. oag insisted that we had to do some chem class test which i am quite gek about. the first qns!! should have gotten it correct, but coz i was dumb, i got zero for that question. sigh. anyway, we had redox titration after the test and guess what happened? it's really really really damn lame and bizzare. as i was pouring the solution into the burette, my burette broke into two and i didn't even touch the burette!! had to pay $2 for that. that was the second burette i broke this year, and the irony is that in my 2 years of chem prac in sc, i didn't even break one burette, but now in hci, with just 3 and a half months, i have already broken 2 burettes. i am very glad that hci subsidies broken burettes, if not i would have had paid $30. sigh.
chem prac was super super draining coz for the rest of the day i felt deflated and stoned. i was just waiting for the 320 bell to ring; it seemed like forever. bio prac was bad. i couldn't concentrate at all, felt damn sian. i found myself reading the same line of the prac 5 times without understanding a single word, nothing went in. maybe the nervous tranmission of information from my eyeballs was faulty. hmm. or maybe the nervous transmission got blocked in my brain. i might be suffering from brain damage. oh no!
finally got my LCD screen! yay!
just read pple's blogs. i have realised a trend. at this stage, most adolscents like us are very emotionally unstable. i know this sounds lame, but technically, it is so. everyone seems to have problems but nobody seems to display it in front of others. emotional turmoil. privacy. distrust. cynicism. so young? the problem seems to be aggravating.
or perhaps, it's just the language. i realised that early this year, i found myself like this too. this is new. in sc, life was very straightforward and i never had such problems. life was relatively happier and simpler. i like that way of life. you may say i am childish, but isn't the latter a preferred and healthier way to live?
sometimes, i really think that these problems are actually not problems at all. it probably wouldn't even have existed if we didn't think so much and dwell too much on things. honestly, things have become more complicated after jc life started, maybe it's because there are more pple that we have to relate to, or perhaps it's because we suddenly realise that pple aren't simple creatures. well, then i guess if you only have this sudden realisation, you are damn slow. and don't tell me you are going to live in misery and cynisim for the rest of your lives and be a coward, that's utterly dumb. face your problems. even if it isn't easy, face it. stop running away. find your own solution. i know escape is the easiest way out and i must admit i have such thoughts a lot of times, but in truth, we all know that escape is not an option. escape is only a temporary solution; if the problem is rooted, then i suppose you should either solve it or direct your attention to other stuff.
whatever. i have no idea why, but i am getting quite pissed writing this entry. pissed with what? pissed with who? i have no idea. argh. maybe coz it's quite stuffy in my room. irritating.
reading blogs makes one depressed somehow. i guess blogs are outlets of emotions and feelings, looking from the way things are, blogs are very depressing works to read, i suppose even after i read some biography about war survivors, i wouldn't be half as sianified and affected as i am now. maybe blogs are bad things after all. i should stop reading blogs. i should stop blogging. blogging lets your inner thoughts out and even aggravates your turmoil even more; it straightens out your thoughts, emphasises the idea in your mind again again and again. even if you didn't mean to think this way, repeating the idea in your mind escalates the turmoil. sometimes not seeing the whole jigsaw, but just bits and pieces of it will make life more contented.
blogging is bad.
so stop reading my blog.
just on a lighter note. i am happy now even though this whole entry sounded very warped and out of the blue. if you don't understand a word i was preaching about, just take it as crap. blogs are crappy anyway. if you understand what i was trying to bring across, i guess that's good, but i won't give a damn whether you heed my advice or not, it's just a personal opinion. i like my life happy, sc style.
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i am super tired now. my mum tells me that i should sleep early coz my eyes are getting very puffy and i realised that i have eyebags!! *GASPS* i was supposed to be in bed about 8 minutes ago, but my addiction to the internet is too strong for me to resist.. damn, i should have more self discipline.
i am going down to simlim square with my mum and dad this sat to get my LCD screen! yay! my bro's comp just died AGAIN. can't believe it.
this week is a super busy week - chem and econs test, 2.4 run, network, awwa cip starts on wed. aiyayayaya. so busy!
Lk told us our project work groupings today. my group is a funny group. lolz, kk, the pple in my group are me, aaron, weijin, meiyi and bernice. hahahahaha! and guess what our group name is? group 123. hahahahaha. we sound fake and somehow cartoon like. hahaha. when daryl heard that aaron and weijin were in my group, he couldn't stop laughing. hahahaha.
i feel quite bad now. on fri when LK told us that he would tell us our grouping today, i was praying very hard that aaron wouldn't be in my group coz i kept thinking that he would be very difficult to work with since he likes to work alone. i think i was being selfish; i didn't want him to affect my pw grade. i feel even worse now coz i went around telling pple that i didn't want him in my group. i feel guilt rising up my throat.
but when LK told us the final grouping today i still couldn't believe he was in my group. i feel like an idiot now. aaron was very good today. once we got into our mini group and after he and weijin finished discussing dota, he whipped up this book and told us his super cool idea(but i shan't say it here coz i can't). i am glad that aaron is in my group coz he has suuuuper extensive general knowledge of natural forces and so on. but i guess that is only the slight reason why i am glad he is my group. aaron is after all, a nice and funny guy, just that he can get a little way too sadistic at times. well, i guess i decided that my group clicks quite well together, regardless of whether we are a first or second intaker, we all seem to be able to talk freely and all. despite the occassional sidetracking by the RV guys when they start discussing intensively about dota, weijin always knows when to stop aaron and we will get back to topic. our discussion today wasn't exactly fruitful or whatever, but it's a start and i hope it becomes better.
i look forward to my group and even though the qns suck coz i dunno what to write for my personal idea, i hope we all do well. XP
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this is super cool coz i just moved my comp into my room. yupz, no longer have to stay in the study room to surf the net anymore. my mum was super reluctant to let me move my comp, but i managed to convince her anyway! XP
i spent about an hour or so just now moving, fixing and cleaning up my comp.. super tiring. but it's all worth it, at least i think it is. XP
the only problem now is that i have to go and get a LCD screen asap. i know i sound kinda ancient here since i am still using one of those super huge and bulky monitors, but that's coz my mum refuses to spend anymore money on my comp coz it breaks down every 2 months or so. believe it or not, i only installed windows XP yesterday coz my uncle said that my modem and router were not compatible with the system. yes. pathetic isn't it?
i wanted to go and get the LCD screen just now from j8, but it's super super ex! it's about $400 at best denki and there is NO WAY i am going to pay that sum. my mum insists that i pay for the screen myself. sigh. my uncle told me that at simlim square they sell cheaper ones, about $100 cheaper.. sigh, but that's still gonna burn a deeeeeeep hole in my pocket. -_-" anyone wants to go to simlim square with me?? i doubt my mum would be free any time soon coz she just got herself addicted to some korean show. yupz, so my sis and her would just sit at the living room and watch that show. hmm.. i still don't like korean shows.
my study table is now half the size it used to be coz my monitor is huge, but i shall manage somehow.
richard clayderman rocks!
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today was a really 'happening' day; right from the start of the day until just now, i was super super busy.
today was my moe scholarship interview which i totally screwed up because my answers didn't make sense, the judge had this weird expression on her face, i think she thinks i am crazy because i was going on about castration of eunuchs during biology.
i feel like falling alseep. sleep sleep sleep.
then i rushed back to school for council elections, managed to catch the second batch of QnA. apparently, calvin chiew's answer was super good, wished i caught it. anyway, the election results were out at four today, the pple who got in were quite expected. congrats to those who made it. i don't think everyone deserved it, but it is not that i really give a damn about council anyway. hope they just don't boss us around and make us to dumb stuff coz i just won't do them. my mum just pissed me off. argh.
ordered macdonalds breakfast to be delivered to chinese high school canteen, but it came super late, so we were starving. but the food was good, so no regrets. XP
then there was parent-teacher meeting at night. my mum came and i showed her around the hci campus. she came in by the canteen and i told her 'this is our smelly canteen', and she said 'yar, it looks really small and smelly'. hahahaha!
then later in the audi, she smsed me at about 7 something and told me that the principal was very very longwinded. haha.
later, dawei, daryl, jeff, anna and i went into the classroom to look for our parents who finally got to meet the legendary boring LK. hahaha. my mum was so excited to see me. -_-" anyway, i sat behind my mum and she immediately turned back, cupped her mouth and whispered 'your teacher is SO soft! i can't hear anything! i can't wait to get out of here!' hahahaha! now you see where my radical genes come from! hahaha.
dranice is even worse though. she told her parents to go for the pta at about 8+ coz she said the front part was all crap. RADICAL!
apparently, all the parents who went there found LK too soft! anna said that her mum wonders how on earth we can sit through his lessons. hahaha. RADICAL PARENTS! =P
during the pta with LK, my mum said that some parents asked really weird qns like 'how many guys were there in the class?' and 'what subject combination is my child taking?' O_o my mum was quite proud that she knew the answers and was harping about how some of my classmates don't talk to their parents and how she was glad i told her stuff. -_-"
there was this other weird parent who rose this 'problem' about how the girls nowadays don't tuck in their blouse, but just put some string around their waist to make it stay at that length' that parent is mad, doesn't she know that every jc girl does that? my mum thinks she is ridiculous also, i mean, as long as you look neat and smart, does it matter if your shirt is tucked in or out? is that woman from the 18th century or what?? O_o
daryl and dawei brought anna and i around chinese high to look at the scary solo night spots. sigh. i didn't wanna go coz the terrace was so nice and cool, but anna was very intrigued by the ghost stories of chinese high. so we just trudged around and i wasn't really listening coz i was simply too tired and sleepy.
then dawei had to go off and find some of his juniors while daryl brought us around some more. the chinese high classrooms are super nice!! it's airconditioned and their windows are ultra cool; it's the type where you can look from inside, but the pple outside can't see you. imagine the havoc that's inside despite the tranquility outside! anyway, while walking past one of those classrooms, we heard noises from inside, so daryl thought it was some of his juniors in the classrooms and decided to play a trick on them. but it turned out that it was the s74 guys who sneaked into the room and were singing and listening to jay chou songs. i love their classroom! scgs classrooms suck.
i think i should go and sleep now. there isn't much to do online anyway.
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s72 seems quite dead now; everyone seems to be in depression. i just read the guys' blogs, they all seem really sad and demoralised somehow. cheer up k??
by now, i am sure everyone knows that life isn't a smooth journey all along, there will be some turbulance here and there, but it will eventually subside, it's impossible for a turbulance to go forever, it will have to come to an end.
i don't know what's bothering you guys, but from your blogs, you all seem to be disturbed by it. i am not sure if you guys are even in the mood to read my blog today, but i decided to post this entry specially for you pple; a dedication i suppose.
last week, i was really down in the dumps and i hated it. but i guess i am over it and i am going to share with you how to get over depressions or whatever you are going through now. i am not sure how well it will work for you, but there is no harm trying i guess.
Ways to be happy again:
1) listen to soothing classical music and sleep. (it works all the time!)
2) stop listening to satanic or sad/depressing songs because it will only worsen your mood. oh yar, don't listen to the lyrics of songs coz it will only make you think deeper about your problems and question your stand in life and all. instead, listen to some fast-paced songs like dance pop? i have a lot of dance pop cds, can always lend you pple some if you want. haha.
3) stop thinking about whatever is bothering you. actually, you should stop thinking and reading too deep into matters, just live life as it is, be happy go lucky! be concerned with not the past or the future, but only the present.
4) find somebody to confide in. seriously, i don't think the listener would be sad to listen to your woes, in retrospect, he/she will probably be more than glad to lend you their ear and give you their most earnest advice. after all, that's what friends are for. you pple can always come and find me! XP
5) watch cartoons? my personal favs are johney quest, totally spies and martin mystery. haha, cartoons rock!
yupz, hope everyone cheers up! be happy!!
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who is khao lak????????????? damn it! tell me!!!!! i feel so intruded now... damn damn damn. anyone who knows of this intruder, please tell me!!! if not i shall stop posting until i know who he/she is. argh.
i really don't like stitch, she seems to have all the **y* hypnotised under her ah hem 'charm'. but i don't really give a damn about it. at least i know not all of them are under her spell. i shall just try and pretend i didn't see anything. ignorace is bliss.
i shall stop bitching about her.
s72 isn't that fun anymore. quite boring. today's marina bay outing was cancelled last minute, so i stayed at home... quite glad anyway, i needed to catch up with my sleep. hehe. piggy me. sleptover at pam's house last night and it was just like old times, all the laughing and being stupid; we pranked call a lot of pple coz it was april fool. the chaorong call was super super funny!!! but most of the guys we wanted to prank call didn't pick up their phones, so wasted! hahahaha! i sounded so bimbotic on the phone. lolz. we didn't bitch about pple last night, just wondered what future laid in front of us. piggy shiqi was the first one to conk out at 3am.. so loserfied.
i don't hate villain that much anymore after jeff told me that the whole thing was just a joke that the rv guys decided to come up with. getting quite neutral towards him, but it's going to take some time before i will talk to him i guess. he is quite intimidated by me now anyway. haha.
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