some things happened today and i am quite affected now. the day started out quite ok, was quite happy that huiwen might be joining me in s72.. but i heard she is trying to change to s74 coz there are more scgs girls there. i respect her decision. btw, huiwen is a really really really nice person, so when she joins us tomorrow, everyone, please be super nice to her ok?
s72 is no longer going to be a pure bcme class, i should have guessed. so, yupz, we are now a mix class with both bcme and triple science. aaron, jeff and jiashee are staying! that's great.
hmm... i kinda regret giving aaron my blog url now. damn it.. i thought he was leaving us for good. but he doesn't bother to read my blog, so i guess there really wasn't a need to give it to him from the very start, he's addicted to quizzes now. sigh. i doubt he will even read this entry, so heck. haha, aaron lost my blog url. too bad.
3 sad things happened today. there was one especially sad one, but i shall try to get over it, i was supposed to, right from the start anyway. i was all set to get over it, was planning to avoid it, ignore it, forget it. but it kept appearing and appearing.. i was quite affected, sad probably. but now i feel more prepared if such things happen again, at least i know what to do.
i have come to realise that some things are not what it seems from the surface. we might all seem to be fine in front of everyone, but i can sense something different. i hate being so sensitive, it really isn't me. but this really is a time of uncertainty and all... i shall pretend i didn't realise anything. if there is a need, i shall do something to rectify problems. i will not run away. problems are meant to be faced, not avoided.
i had always thought that it was like this. i guess not. i guess i was thinking too much, reading too deep. but it's ok. this one isn't that bad.
i suddenly feel like leaving s72. i don't know why. it's probably because s72 doesn't have much to hold me down. but i am not sure which class i want to switch to either. maybe i want to go to rj, after all, it's super near my house. a new environment would be good, start from scratch again. i am not a big fan of monotony, new things everyday would be great, but it doesn't seem the case nowadays. there are so few pple left in the class and almost everyone spends their day the same way they spend every other way. i must admit, i am someone who is very easily bored, i need new stuff. the second intakers tomorrow don't look very promising, at least i know for one, there will be a chaoqun coming in. i am bias, i want him to leave. >_<
hmm...note, this is not a suicide note or anything. coz according to Lk's lessons from 'clues to identify someone who is going to commit suicide', i seem to be on the verge. but let me assure you all that i am SANE and i LOVE LIFE! so please don't fret.
i feel much better now. i love w-inds! listening to their songs makes me feel better.
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