some things happened today and i am quite affected now. the day started out quite ok, was quite happy that huiwen might be joining me in s72.. but i heard she is trying to change to s74 coz there are more scgs girls there. i respect her decision. btw, huiwen is a really really really nice person, so when she joins us tomorrow, everyone, please be super nice to her ok?
s72 is no longer going to be a pure bcme class, i should have guessed. so, yupz, we are now a mix class with both bcme and triple science. aaron, jeff and jiashee are staying! that's great.
hmm... i kinda regret giving aaron my blog url now. damn it.. i thought he was leaving us for good. but he doesn't bother to read my blog, so i guess there really wasn't a need to give it to him from the very start, he's addicted to quizzes now. sigh. i doubt he will even read this entry, so heck. haha, aaron lost my blog url. too bad.
3 sad things happened today. there was one especially sad one, but i shall try to get over it, i was supposed to, right from the start anyway. i was all set to get over it, was planning to avoid it, ignore it, forget it. but it kept appearing and appearing.. i was quite affected, sad probably. but now i feel more prepared if such things happen again, at least i know what to do.
i have come to realise that some things are not what it seems from the surface. we might all seem to be fine in front of everyone, but i can sense something different. i hate being so sensitive, it really isn't me. but this really is a time of uncertainty and all... i shall pretend i didn't realise anything. if there is a need, i shall do something to rectify problems. i will not run away. problems are meant to be faced, not avoided.
i had always thought that it was like this. i guess not. i guess i was thinking too much, reading too deep. but it's ok. this one isn't that bad.
i suddenly feel like leaving s72. i don't know why. it's probably because s72 doesn't have much to hold me down. but i am not sure which class i want to switch to either. maybe i want to go to rj, after all, it's super near my house. a new environment would be good, start from scratch again. i am not a big fan of monotony, new things everyday would be great, but it doesn't seem the case nowadays. there are so few pple left in the class and almost everyone spends their day the same way they spend every other way. i must admit, i am someone who is very easily bored, i need new stuff. the second intakers tomorrow don't look very promising, at least i know for one, there will be a chaoqun coming in. i am bias, i want him to leave. >_<
hmm...note, this is not a suicide note or anything. coz according to Lk's lessons from 'clues to identify someone who is going to commit suicide', i seem to be on the verge. but let me assure you all that i am SANE and i LOVE LIFE! so please don't fret.
i feel much better now. i love w-inds! listening to their songs makes me feel better.
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sigh. kevin knows about my blog now. stupid bean. so much about it being a secret and hiding it in a remote corner of the internet realm - it obviously failed. just told aaron about it 2 days ago, now kevin is going to know the url. damn it, my blog seems to be expanding quite fast. a lot of other pple have secret blogs too, but they somehow manage to keep it a secret very well. well, i guess i keep telling pple the url coz i already had the subconcious intention of telling them about it from the start. anyway, i had a poll to see if i should give kevin the url. luck was flowing his way - i shall give him the url after i finish this post.

just a note to anyone who reads this blog: this blog still remains as a secret private blog and you probably know of this blog either because i was conned into giving it to you*looks at the s72 guys* or because i decided that i wanted to let you know what was going on, what i felt about things and all. so basically, in school, this blog is supposed to be non-existent and please do not mention any thing about it to anyone; this applies even if the other party also knows of this blog. so, if another person comes along and asks me for my url, i might just end this blog. i mean it. who knows? i am already paving a road for the day i end my blog. haha.

ok, back to what i wanted to blog about.

i just read daryl's and jeffrey's blogs and i realised that they have secret crushes and all.. other pple seem to know what's going on except me. i am totally blur and kinda confused... really feel kinda sanba, want to know what's going on, but everyone's mouths are shut. damn it. i almost wanted to stoop as low as exchanging my blog url for jeff's crush. that's really despicable. so i shan't do that. my curiosity will die out. XP

anyway, i received a sms from shiqi this morning and she asked me if i wanted to join the youth flying club with her and pam, this way, we could hang out more together. youth flying club - cool cca. haha. i went down with my mum and dad to the seletar base to register and i am now officially on the waiting list. haha. the selections criteria is super strict, you have got to be at least 162cm and you eyesight degree has to be below 300. i am 161.5cm, so it was kinda precarious, but i managed to sign up anyway. i still have to go for a thorough medical check up next sat. i hope i pass the height limit at the doctor's. btw, i have this feeling that pam and shiqi might not be able to make the selection criteria. shiqi isn't singaporean and pam is literally half deaf. sigh. but then again, even if i pass the medical criteria, i might not pass the interview; apparently, they ask questions like 'do you want to join RSAF when you grow up?', 'what do you know about the history of sg youth flying club'. O______o
the admin person at yfc told me that this is a very taxing cca to join and a lot of pple quit after a few months. the pple who join are mainly guys.. haha, my mum was very concerned if there were more guys or more girls. duh, there were more guys. haha, my mum was scanning through the whole stack of recruits and exclaiming at the number of guys... so paiseh. haha. but then again, if i can't find anyone to join with me, i might quit also. sigh. shall try bugging pple to join with me.. but almost 90% hwachongians are half blind. sigh. maybe i shall find a spark of hope in the second intakers, but chances are really slim though. hope pam and shiqi can make it through the selection rounds.
yupz, i was thinking.. if i really can get into yfc(which i will only know in 6 mths O_o), i am going to join interact also. probably going to quit first aid club and network if that's the case. hmm.. but i haven't really decided, i am quite sure i am going to quit first aid club though, but regarding network.. we shall see.
my class pple went out to kbox today. i didn't want to go coz i didn't want to go out on saturdays anymore. anyway, i felt that kbox was ex, and i can't sing, don't want to anyway. apparently, the response was quite bad. haha. actually, i was kinda wavering last night if i should go out today. i came to a conclusion - if they decided to go and play pool, both anna and i would go. but if they decided to go to ecp or kbox, then i shall stay at home. oh well, i guess they chose the later and hence i stay at home. haha. quite glad i stayed at home anyway.. had a chance to go to yfc to sign up.
i just asked kevin a routine qns i asked almost everyone who has access to my blog: rate upon 10 how badly you want to read it. he said 5. he blew away his chance. i was quite insulted. 5?! that's a bare pass!
i think he regrets it now coz his curiosity seems as though it's going to explode any moment now. haha, the rating has gone up to 7 and now 10. haha.
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shiqi and pam aren't gonna be in hci anymore.... i will miss them badly. very badly. i thought they stood quite a good chance, but apparently not. i will miss them.
the good times we had together, i will never forget them, they are simply the best pals.
last year, we kept insisting that it was the last time we could get together and yar, we kept going out and having sleepovers, but in truth, we knew our time was not up. but now, our time seems as though it really is up. i dunno... hopefully, they can make it back to hci after their eng scripts are remarked.
kaiqian managed to make it back to hci with 11 pts. unbelivable but true. i was ok with it at first until i realised that a lot of other pple who did much better than her didn't manage to make it back in. now, i can't help but to feel that she has deprived a lot of better candidates a chance they deserve more. if this is the case, then we can all do the following: get 9 pts for hci and pray you get in for 1st 3 months. then do badly for o levels and just see the VP before posting is even out. crap about your 'leadership' abilities and emphasise your importance to the class. kaiqian is now a living legend(according to my class guys - they all know about her). note: i don't dislike kaiqian or anything, but i felt other pple deserved the hci slot more than her. at least shiqi and pam do.
i will miss shiqi and pam a lot a lot a lot a lot. they are really 2 friends i never want to lose contact with. we shall remain pals forever. so don't forget me, coz i won't forget you.
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You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

i can't believe i am weirder than aaron!! he took the quiz and he is 45% normal!! conclusion - the quiz is super inaccurate.
btw, i have given aaron the url for my blog. well, he is leaving s72 anyway, and i told him not to tell and spread it. i guess it should be ok.
about the background music, bruno wasn't online, so i couldn''t verify the mp3 url with him. well, so if you read this, just mail me the url again k? sorry...
this is kinda weird... supposedly, today was the last day that the first batch of 05s72 had lessons together, i didn't feel anything. am i supposed to feel sad? i think so. but i didn't. didn't feel anything at all. other people didn't seem very affected either.
i just read our class blog, people seem to be quite kinda distraught about our class splitting up, but they don't show it. i guess everyone has already accepted it, after all, it is a fact of life and we can't change much about it. i don't think i will feel tragically depressed or sth, probably won't feel very much. i am quite neutral about such stuff. but memories will definitely remain etched in my mind. s72 had been a very unique class, weird pple, weird hobbies, weird stuff. but weird is good. haha.
i have decided to end my pararazzi career. i am over it. shall make sure i end it.
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i just changed my background music!! i love this song!!!!!!!!!! super super super super nice!!

true - ryan cabreba.

i first heard this song on the plane and i totally fell in love with it. i love the lyrics and melody. the emotion. lolz.
anyway, i need to thank dranice for sending me the mp3 and bruno for being super nice -again- for helping me upload the song onto his ftp server. 3 cheers!
actually, this wasn't the song that i had in mind. i was planning to use aladdin's ' a whole new world'. simply love that song! but, it just so happened that 'true' came along and swept me off my feet. hehe.
hope everyone likes it!
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i am finally back from korea! singapore still rocks! haha, at least it is more colourful and vibrant, but the weather here is damn damn hot, still adapting to it.
actually, i wanted to pon school today, but my mum was very insistent that i should at least go and show my face and mark my attendance, quite lame. a lot of pple ponned school today.
today was the anticipated posting day and it was quite 'exciting'. some people from s72 can't stay, but they are all appealing, really hope they make it back in. a lot of sc girls can't stay either, quite depressing.. but i hope at least shiqi and pam can stay. really hope they make it. the second intakers are coming in tomorrow, i wonder what they are like. hopefully, they are more spontaneous and enthusiastic about class activities, and can somehow miraculously liven up our ultra low class spirit. one word to describe our class - fragmented. i mean, our class gets along quite well and there are no politics or whatsoever, but everyone, or rather majority are just very conscentious and shy people. i know they would like to hang out and all, but i guess it's just not their personality to be so rara. but i would really like to hang out with them sometime, quite sian to hang out with the same few faces all the time, no offence, but i just like to hang out with different people, have a taste of different things.
aaron and jeff are leaving. so sad!! i can't believe they are leaving lah!! they are simply the heart and soul of our class, the clowns, the fun fun fun pple. s72 is gonna be real dull without them. they are such idiots!! argh.
AGM is failing. sucks. ponned econs tutorial to go to orchard, i kinda regret it. Andrew tan is damn nice!! huizhong just told me that yinghong tried cover up for us by telling him that we weren't in a mood for tutorials because we were badly affected be the posting and that's why we didn't go for tutorial, he wasn't pissed at all, but was very sympathetic and said that he was very sad too. andrew tan is SO NICE!! i really really must be nicer to him in the future, at the very least, i should put in more effort for econs. frankly, i haven't spent much time on econs at all even though i am quite weak in it.. should put in more effort.
sigh. empty words. i really should put then into action.
went out to watch 'hitch' today. it was quite a good movie, one of the best movies i have watched for a very long time.
i just did some quizzes. haha.

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group... You're always up for a good time or conversation And you stick with your friends no matter what You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

You Are 15 Years Old

15 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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i am now in korea having my holiday and somehow, in this hotel room that i am in right now, there is a computer with internet access!! lucky lucky me!! the trip has been quite ok so far, a lot of bus rides that are accompanied by destituted mountains and barren trees. slept throughout most of the time. the weather here is incredibly cold and my mum is incredibly paranoid. hahaha, managed to snap a lot of photos with her behaving like an eskimo, damn funny!
actually, not much has happened on this trip since we aren't even in seoul yet(that explains the dull scenery that i have been facing on my bus rides), yupz, so haven't done any shopping or other fun stuff yet. all we have done is to suffer the chilling but somehow refreshing cold winds as we follow our tourguide in and out of some random places like the puny wine and paper musuem. the food here is quite predictable and my tourguide calls korean food 'dieting food'. i totally agree with him, the food here is basically a small bowl of korean rice with lots and lots of preserved vegetables of all sorts,hardly any meat at all. but i must admit that if there happens to be meat on the dinning table, it usually tastes really really good! haha.
there is going to be some shopping tomorrow, hopefully things get better, but then again, i don't feel like trying the clothes coz it will be unbearably cold to expose my skin.>_< well, we shall see about it when the time comes. haha. btw, i managed to catch sight of a liger - a hybrid between a tiger and a lion. it looks quite majestic, but sadly, it can't reproduce.
i just read some pple's blogs. anna seems very passionate about studying; she keeps mentioning that she has to study and do work. i feel so guilty. i haven't touched my work at all and hello?? i am in korea?? how on earth can i do my work? i am so going to die when school reopens. i still haven't caught up with any of my schoolwork, especially chem!! super super dead. damn it, my holiday mood is now affected. damn damn damn.
something seems to be brewing in s72... i think it has just exploded, but i am not sure of the details. i can't go online now since this comp doesn't have msn so i can only rely on blog posts, maybe you guys and tag here and inform me? haha. anyway... i read gavin's blog and i totally agree with him. this proves that my sentiments were correct. forming such a distinct and rara clique with just some people of the class simply is not a good thing. 4sy had a similar fate and i wasn't in favour of it. note: i wasn't in the rara gang, i left them after one year coz i realised that it wasn't very nice to neglect the rest of the class and be selfishly absorbed in our own activites. hopefully, s72 doesn't become like that. i am not going to hang out with the guys anymore. not going to slack after school in the class bench to bond with them. it's for the good of everyone.
AGM has kinda flopped, but i shall work hard to keep it up. sorry, but now it seems quite rubbish to just let nature take its course coz nature is going the opposite direction. nature is not an option now, we have to take it in our hands, do it ourselves, make sure it happens. we need to change the entire social network of s72, the active portion is simply too small. in order for our whole class to have a great two years in hci, our class has to change, we need to make the conscious to mix our class so that we can finally obtain a more homogeneous friendship.
i really think this way. hopefully things will work out for the best.
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i am now at changi airport using their comps.. the comps are super super slow!! and they limit each user to a pathetic 15 mins. smart.
anyway... just decided to come online and say hi, wanted to log on to msn, but the comp here doesn't have any other programme but IE. btw, the keyboard here is also quite bad.
oh, this is quite funny. coz the comps are supposedly STRICTLY for passengers, but at the side of me now are two airport people who are also surfing the net. slackers!
erm.. so i guess this will be my last post till i come back. some good news for you guys, i decided to keep my blog even i get a really nice diary. after all, i did spent my whole sunday finding blogskins and fiddling with the damn html to get the stuff right. hmm.. i am thinking of changing the background music and i have something in mind, shall do it when i have the time. XP
ok... gtg now. don't miss me too much when i am in korea and remember DO NOT LET LK KNOW THAT I WENT ABROAD coz i am gonna say i am sick. just tell him that i am sick k? no need to elaborate. thanks!!
see you guys soon~
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i am flying off to korea later, won't be back till next monday. but i guess if there is a chance, i will try and find some cyber cafe to come online to just say hi or something, but chances are quite slim though.
as most of you should have known by now, i am ponning school on monday and i already have my excuse later all typed out, so if LK asks if anyone knows why i am absent, just say i am sick k? don't elaborate and please DO NOT let LK find out that i went abroad.. very bad for my scholarship applications and all.
thanks to daryl's suggestion, i might just pon school on tues also, but not confirmed yet, my mum says it is still tentative. haha, but i think i probably will in the end.. after all, tuesday is a totally crappy day, seriously, i doubt i will miss anything even if i don't go. LK = boring = useless = waste of time.
bruno just went off to study for his stupid math exam.. sigh. nobody to talk to now.. quite sian.
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went out again today. sigh. i really should stop going out all the time. i hate it. i really hate it. such a waste of money and my time. my life is getting kinda materialistic and superficial, this is really sick, i don't wanna go out anymore, so next time DO NOT ASK ME OUT!
anyway, went out with pam today coz i needed a new tote bag.. went to all the same few shops again and eventually bought this really nice mambo one. yay! XP
i was super sian in the day and pam was also super lethargic since she claimed that she only slept for 5 hours last night. i was talking very slowly today, it felt kinda weird, but i guess that's good, since i always talk super fast. haha. erm. i am very tired now.
we went to isetan coz pam needed to get some track pants for her dance class and guess who we saw?? grace and maureen!! cool!! i thought i would never seen maureen again since i thought she went off to america to study business. but apparently, she is still in singapore! hahaha!
then we kinda slacked at cine foodcourt for a while since we couldn't decide which movie to watch. pam was broke, and i really mean broke. she didn't even have one buck in her wallet. haha.
went to swensons to meet wen, kyna, sam and chelly!! yay! glori couldn't come coz her interact camp ended quite late.. quite disappointing. yup, so chelly and i gave our treat. as usual, cheapo wen took full use of this chance and ordered the most expensive crayfish spaghetti and rodeo wings(which she couldn't finish) despite her terrible, life threatening cough. before i met her just now, i was on the phone talking to her and she was coughing every 5 secs, it sounded very serious. but nevertheless, wen still jumped at chelly's ice cream and took very big spoonfulls of it. haha. piggy wen. but after dinner, she was like really really sick; she couldn't even walk properly and she was nausous.. both kyna and i thought she was pregnant. hahaha. but i think it was also partly because wen is allergic to shopping (we were helping chelly look for a nice bag at heeren). so sam and wen went home early.
and the three of us, kyna, chelly and i decided to continue shopping for chelly's bag. walked to wisma, then isetan, but still didn't get anything. so wasted.
oh! kyna showed us a photo of charles!! finally! we get to see who is this mysterious guy.. hahaha.. so sad he couldn't join us today coz he is in KL for some soccer camp. charles is not bad looking eh.. haha.. kyna has good taste after all. =P
i haven't finish packing my luggage, but i guess it doesn't matter.. hmm.. shall finish packing tomorrow. >_<
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super duper tired today. i have been out the whole day, walking, walking and walking. i went out in the morning to do some stuff, then in the afternoon, i accompanied my mum to robinsons and john little to get more winter wear coz my mum is incredibly paranoid about the weather in korea. in fact, she has already made it a daily habit to check seoul's weather and announce it to the whole family. haha. my mum is quite lame. come to think of it, she is VERY lame. hahaha. she is both afraid of the cold and the heat. just take today for instand, while walking to the train station, she insisted on walking under any available shaded path no matter how narrow it is. when i told her that she was quite lame, she was like 'i am not lame lah. too much sun is bad for your skin.' RIGHT. hahahaha, i love my mum! and she was nice enough to linger with me at orchard until about 6pm when i had to go down to toapayoh to meet the rest, even though she was super busy yesterday. <3
anyway... next stop - faculty outing. we were supposed to meet at 630 at toa payoh mrt, but i reached at 615. obviously, i was the first. so i lingered around for the rest to arrive. met kityeng and daryl not long later and decided to sit down because i was very very tired. the guys started streaming in soon..then anna came along. and so once again , it was just the rara gang who reached early. actually, the turn out for just now was quite bad, only 11 people from our class turned up. wasn't it supposed to be our last class outing together? everyone seemed quite geared up for it when yinghong asked who was going, but oh well, it turned out that this is how much they treasure our 3 months as classmates. anyway, i am glad shiqi, jelene, anna, kityeng, minjie, daryl, kevin, aaron, jeffrey and dawei turned up! =) 6 guys and 5 girls. ironic. our usual girl-guy ratio is 9:4. our class girls really should be more enthusiastic about class events. s70 was super enthu, both guys and girls were very spontaneous. but s72 is still a good class to be in. XP
anna, kityeng and i were very kiasu today. haha. we went on the first bus to the clubhouse and occupied the table that had the best view of the entire puny stage. yay! i am quite glad we did that coz there were some other pple who had to end up sitting on the ground to watch the games. haha.
the guys treated us like maids last night. sigh. coz ziyao(our fac head) was being a gentleman and decided that girls should go and get our food first, so our class guys were like 'eh, you all go first and kope whatever food there is lah' and somehow, all the 5 of us were very obedient and we streamed back to our tables with a lavish spread of the food available. shiqi commented that we were having our own 'mini buffet' haha, that was quite true. the food was alright i guess, nothing fantastic. but i guess the guys realised that it wasn't very nice to treat us like maids, so they ended up volunteering to get us drinks and deserts. haha. we couldn't finish the food in the end, but i guess that's expected.
the faculty games were quite interesting, especially the muscle man game. it was SICK. hahahaha. this was how it went. the audience had to come up with 5 muscle men who were subsequently brought out of the function room. then ziyao told us that it was actually not a muscle man competition, but it was a competition to see which guy had the 'densest, most intense armpit hair'. like O________o hahahaha. but it was true. ziyao suggested that we shouted 'higher' when the contestants raised their arms to flex their muscles. i was on the verge of puking, but i must admit, it was one of the more entertaining games of the night. and so, the contestants walked back into the hall, totally oblivious of their cruel fate ahead, all falling for the trick. it was hilarious!! all 5 of them were intensely flexing their muscles and were surprisingly spontaneous enough to heed the audience's advice of raising their arms higher! hahahahah! i almost died laughing. lolz! the judging was also quite funny since ziyao went to each contestant and said 'do you think this guy has XXX that is as dense as bukit timah nature reserve?' hahahahaha!! ziyao is damn funny!!
the next highlight of the night was the faculty princess and faculty prince pageant. s72 sent shiqi and kevin. we stood such a good chance of winning!! especially kevin!! he was obviously the most shuai guy there!! but too bad he was too shy and too small sized. wasted. if only they didn't have the personality round, then we really could have won. aiyayaya. so wasted. oh well, but our newly crowned fac prince and fac princess are also not bad. the guy is shuai and the girl is chio, so i am fine with them.
fac night finally ended, didn't regret going for it at all, just wished that more s72 pple could have turned up. the guys suggested a sleepover at first, but in the end it didn't work out. oh well.
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went to the band concert last night.. it was SUPER GOOD!! hahaha, it was the best band concert that i have been to so far and i shall rate it 8 out of 10. the music was really very good! three cheers for wen, chelly and huiwen!! <3
was super tired last night, slept at 1030pm. i had a dream.
i dreamt that my secret blog was no longer a secret anymore and everyone in s72 and even LK had access to my blog. didn't like it. not that i bitch about pple or write about things that pple are not supposed to read, but it's just that i don't like writing in restriction. i don't know who reads my blog since they can just read it and close the window without commenting to mark his/her visit. who knows what that person will do?
currently, only the sc pple, bruno, anna, kityeng and minjie(who used his post as IT rep to con me into telling him the url) know of my blog and i already feel that that's a lot of pple. aiyayaya.. i don't know. i shouldn't have had a blog in the first place.. i saw this coming.
well, this is ironic since there were a few times last term that i really felt like announcing to the whole world that i had a blog and everyone can come and read it. but i am glad i always managed to get a grip of myself and didn't in the end. but i guess everytime will have to come to an end one day and i should embrace myself for that day. i just haven't decided when.
i feel like closing this blog. i don't know. we shall see. it all depends on my holidays.. hopefully i can get a really nice diary. but then again, i am not fond of writing with a pen, typing is so much more efficient and fun. haha. i love typing!
maybe i can disclose my blog after the hols. we shall see.
i wanna be thrifty.
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finally! treated shiqi and pam to dinner just now. quite lame, coz birong, felicia and heather couldn't make it last minute. oh well, i think shiqi and pam were quite happy since they had more money each to spend.. haha. yupz, so i treated them to a movie and we went to marche in the end. walao, stupid pam and shiqi were just out to squeeze out all my money; insisted on spending the entire $100. pigs. haha.
erm...today was quite a terrible day in school since there were A LOT of boring boring lessons and i really contemplated ponning school, but in the end, i decided that i shouldn't escape and went to school anyway. kinda regretted it. hehe. anyway, the last lesson was bio prac and it was relatively simple, so i finished it quite fast, hoping that i could leave early to meet shiqi and pam at orchard. but sadly, no. when i finally finished my bio prac, mrs cheng came up and said 'emilia, finish already ah? that's good. now you can help zhouhao count the bio equipment'. i almost died when i heard that. like i had to count 56 syringes, 14 rules and 14 cork screw borers and some other weird stuff. thank goodness i didn't volunteer to be bio rep.
anyway, so FINALLY, school ended and i sped down to orchard to meet pam and shiqi. saw A LOT of acjc and rj pple there. they are so rara, school term end and the first thing they do is to hang out at hip orchard. and basically, there were no other hci pple except me, pam and shiqi. pathetic. mugger school. haha.
erm.. today was the first time i ate at marche, quite loserfied. the place and ambience and all was quite nice, but i guess i wasn't really impressed. we kinda ate a lot of things, but basically, we shared all our food, so we managed to eat a variety of different food. i loved the mash potato!! SO NICE!! haha. it was really quite a good get-together session.
after coming to hci, it has been really difficult to get together since we have different commitments, different classes and different free time slots. basically, it's almost impossible to find a perfect time for everyone to come together and just chat and hang out. most of my time now is spent with s72, s72 and s72. i don't even spend so much time with my family any more. i reach home late everyday and go out every weekend. i realised that i had been very busy for the entire term, is that good? hmm... i guess not in my case.. slack too much, spend too much money and becoming super tired everyday. aiyayaya. not good.
well, anyway, today was a very good get together for the three of us!! having a sleepover at sunday night!! so exciting!! i love sleepovers.. hahaha! super sleep now. night night!
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FINALLY!! i simply love badminton!! waited two weeks before i got to play badminton!! I LOVE BADMINTON!! i really love the speed the shuttlecock flies across the net and the challenge to hit it back across to my opponent. well, i really don't know how to explain why i am so madly in love with this sport, but i really really really love it!! hmm.. probably coz it's one of the only sports that i excel in. haha. the pe teacher in charge of badminton had really good badminton tips and somehow, i realised that i have wasted 6 years of just hitting the shuttlecock aimlessly back to my father without even knowing what the game was all about. all i knew before today was that no matter what happened, i had to hit the shuttlecock back. haha, juvenile. well, all is not lost yet since i finally realised that true meaning behind badminton, the strategy and proper techniques and all. oh!! i finally found out the proper technique for a backhand!! it has always been my weakest part of badminton...so now i can work on it and improve my badminton skills!!
hmm... today was quite a slack day lah.. tuesdays mah, 6 periods of BORING LK. i really really really hate LK's lessons!!! he is the ultimate ultimate boring teacher on earth!! like who goes on for 2 months on english grammer and how to write a proper paragraph??? and he is has never ending transparencies, just keeps flashing, flashing and flashing them. can't stand it. but the WORST part is his tone - flat, monotonous, slooow. i already have this firm belief that if LK is going to teach me GP for the next two years, not only am i going to fail GP, i am also going to hate it. damn it.
oh!! tomorrow's econs test is cancelled!! WOOHOOO!!! what can get better??? =)
second day of AGM had been good. we should keep up the good work.
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damn it! i just read shiqi's diary and i realised that she interpreted my kudos wrongly!! ahh~~ this is quite shit. i really didn't mean to 'despise' you guys lah, walao, anyhow interpret my words.
anyway!! shiqi, i really didn't mean it lah. i shall edit now k??

shiqi - aka kampung chicken. the always FUN-LOVING and CUTE classmate of mine for two years, always bring me laughter and joy no matter what happens, especially when i was stressedup last year. yupz, and she is also super smart,*i really think you are super smart* coz she always does quite well in most of her tests even though she doesn't study very much. lolz. and shiqi is always super enthu about stuff and is always there to *screech* her voice hoarse during competitions. hahahaha. KAMPUNG CHICKEN forever!!.

pam - the crazy dramatic girl i would never forget. pam and i were classmates in pri 5, but i only got close to her in sec 3.. hmm..i can't remember why either. eh, pam has always been super fun to hang out with coz you can never stop laughing when you are with her, possibly because of her DRAMATIC actions and reactions to some stuff that just makes me wanna crack up. yup, and i never feel pressurised or stressed around her.. dunno why also lah. oh! i will NEVER forget pam coz she tore my physics textbook during prelims and offered to pay me 25cents in compensation. RIGHT PAM. hahahaha. well, really enjoyed the highly stressed prom shopping days we had last year... super tiring, but damn fun.

see! i editted my kudos, i really didn't mean to DESPISE you lah, walao walao walao. haha.
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haven't blogged for quite some time now, probably because nothing much happened.
anyway, today was supposed to be day one of all girls mode, and it was quite successful until the end of the day and we concluded that it was a success, but in the end, it kinda flopped once school ended coz i ended up going to orchard with kevin, minjie and daryl. sigh, 1 girl and 3 guys. luckily we didn't see any of my sc juniors or seniors, if not they will think i am some despo freak. yar.. realised that i have been hanging out with the guys a lot lately.. on sat, kinda hanged out with kevin and minjie at orchard while waiting for talentime. sigh sigh sigh. should ask more girls to hang out with me when i hang out with the guys in the future. I AM NOT A DESPO FREAK.
kk.. i don't have much time left coz i need to bathe.
eh.. what else next. oh!, we had talentime on sat and it was terrible terrible terrible! seriously, i have never seen anything as bad as that. no wonder it is a bi-annual event. haha.
school ended at 1120 today since hci did relatively well for 'a' levels, so sad, only half day lor. sigh. i was quite determined to come home and study econs straight after school, but i ended up going to orchard with the guys. aiya, why did daryl suggest going shopping?? aiyayaya.
anyway, so yar. kevin, minjie, daryl and i went to orchard. kevin aka RICH boy, had to buy a new pencilcase even though his current one is super nice and new and i had to look for a sling bag for my bro. yar.. so we kinda went to almost every ripcurl, quiksilver,mambo,etc shop that we could find at orchard, all the way down from pacific plaza to cine. waaa.. and i WALKED all the way! so proud of myself! shopping with guys really makes me more fit! haha.
yupz, then kityeng, rachel and elaine decided to join us for lunch at cine pastamania. the food was ok lah.
then we went to 'pretty in tokyo' to take some neoprints. actually, i wasn't very keen on it lah, coz i was quite full and didn't want any strenuous activities, but elaine and rachel were quite insistent, so in the end, the 7 of us took neoprints. well, it was quite fun lah, since we kept having to pose for different cameras within such short time periods. erm, and it was quite dumb coz we had the same poses (just normal smiles) for each photo. lolz. but i guess the photos turned out quite well. i want the neoprint with the yellow background!! ahh!
oh well... i guess paying $1 for a few minutes of fun was quite worth it. haha. erm.. then we went to taka to eat icecream. i ate my favourite durian icecream!! finally! had been craving for it since sat. haha. apparently, a lot of pple in s72 don't like durians. weird. durians are SO NICE!! haha
oops. my sister just finished bathing, so it's my turn to bathe! so tata!
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i just felt like typing another entry before i go and sleep.
i told the pple that i am going to treat them coz i felt bad for my grades and they all said that i don't have to feel bad coz i deserved it. thanks a lot!
so i just wanna give kudos to everyone who had help me last year during the terrible slogging period. i hope it's not too late coz i have justed started to accept my miracle grades. XP
i wanna thank the following people and the names are not in any order. there are 2 main clique of friends that i really wanna thank.
the first group is the group that i have been hanging out with since primary school and i am really glad we are still good friends after so long and i really hope we can still remain the way we are even though we hardly see each other now.
wenli - for always being there to give me encouragement and support, especially last year after prelims, for some reason or another, i was super jaded and sick and tired of my life and really really detested studying, wen gave me encouragement and good words of advice.
glori - for being the BEST BEST BEST cousin that i have and always being funky and making me laugh. you have always been so optimistic about setbacks and i really got a lot of motivation from you.
kyna - for always hanging out with me all the time when everyone seems to be busy except the two of us. i always feel so happy with you coz there is no stress and all. lolz.
chelly - for always listening to me complain and complain and complain. and you always laugh at everything i say even though it is super lame and all.
sam - for being crazy and doing stupid things that are quite entertaining and funny. haha. you smart geper.
ching - even though you aren't in singapore now, but i shall give you acknowledgements anyway. hmm... i wanna thank you for reading my blog now and always leaving comments. haha.
yupz.. and the second group of girls are the people who i usually spent most of my secondary life with, laughing and doing stupid things.
felicia - i have known you since sec one and honestly, you have been my motivation to do well in sec one, i really don't know where i would be right now if you didn't join sc then. then we were in the same class all the way till sec 4. you were my sci lab partner for 3 years.. haha, and we were always so blur, not knowing what to do for any pracs coz we were talking too much. haha. those were the fun times that we had and i will always remember it.
birong - we have been classmates since sec 2, but i only got to know you better in sec 3. was it coz of 5566? hmm.. i can't remember. anyway, i am glad you were there coz you too, were a motivator for me to study. hehe, coz you were always so conscentious, so i felt bad lagging too far behind. and you were my shopping partner remember? lolz!
shiqi - aka kampung chicken. you were the most slack triple sci student that i knew coz you never started studying for any tests earlier than the test day itself, but miraculously, you survived, and quite well indeed. haha. we sat near each other in sec 4 coz i moved over to the right side of the class and we had A LOT of fun times being stupid and laughing out loud.
pam - the crazy dramatic girl i would never forget. i have known pam since primary 5, but i only started knowing her in sec 1 coz she was my higher chinese partner and she always copied my chinese tests/work blatantly in front of laoshi. haha. then we were classmates in sec 3 and 4 and somehow, even though we are VERY different in character, we clicked quite well. pam always did last minute work and always gets flustered over minor issues.. haha. anyway, it was great to have her around coz she was literally the class clown since she was a living joke.
alright, now, we have all moved on to junior college and we probably will never be able to relive our memorable secondary school days.
btw, i realised that i have become SUPER NICE since i entered jc. i am not sure why, but i find myself being super nice now. haha. off to sleep now! goodnight!
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went to school today and we had a bio test on 5 chapters!! seriously, i thought i was going to die, but it turned out to be quite ok. i was planning to just study carbohydrates, lipids and proteins and abandon water and enzymes, but it turned out that enzymes, proteins and carbos were the super important chapters. haha. but before bio test, there were a lot of slack lessons like CSP (ponned), so i managed to read through my enzyme notes once. the test was quite ok i guess, hopefully i pass. i realised i made quite a few super careless and dumb mistakes, but it doesn't matter since i know i didn't do much thorough studying. i just hope i don't get one of the last in class lah. and just when i thought i could slack after the bio test, stupid SM(econs teacher) had to pop out with ANOTHER econs test. this is like the THIRD econs test we had this term, why on earth must we have so many econs tests??? we haven't even had a single math test this term. haha, my math teacher is SUPER slack! i like it this way - working at my own pace and not get pushed by anyone.
anyway... enough about stupid tests. the first three months of JC is ending soon!! ahh!! well, it has been relatively slack and i really had quite a lot of fun with s72. my mum told me that a lot of hci parents tell her that their children are REALLY SLACKING in the first three months there; going out everyday and not studying at all. i wish i could do that... i guess i should lah, since from next term onwards, the REAL pressure and stress is going to fall on us. somebody save us!!
actually, i realised that s72 is kinda segregated and the main bulk of the class consists of simply the rara gang, which is namely, the guys and the girls who hang out with the guys. the girls who hang out with the guys have been changing since the year started and currently, these girls are me, kityeng and anna. the other girls don't talk to the guys at all and i seriously think this is the main reason why our class simply can't bond that well. i mean, i know that our class girls are generally quite quiet, but i really believe there is an enthu side they have. i mean take stj for instance, dawei told everyone to meet at 1pm to just slack around at orchard till 5pm, but only the rara gang turned up. the other girls decided to plan their own activities. this is really bad!! and now, there are quite a few girls who are deciding to either change school or change their combination. oh no!! this really shouldn't be the way, everyone should be included and not left out like that! but this is going to be a tacky problem since the girls don't really take the initiative to hang out with the guys much and the guys won't talk to you unless you talk to them. jiahui has ponned school for 2 days now, i think she really doesn't like our class very much. and i was thinking, there is a possibility that some girls are getting quite annoyed coz it's always the same few girls who have all the fun and hang out with the guys. i am not going to say who, but i think there is at least ONE girl who thinks this way. aiyayaya! i really don't know what to do. maybe we should isolate ourselves from the guys so that the guys will have a chance to talk to the other girls., you know, have fun with them too.
and just now i was slacking after school with dawei, kevin and minjie and they told me that A LOT of people, including the guys themselves, were considering changing their combinations!! i feel like swearing, but i shall not! anyway! so that means that s72 might just crumble like that! just because we don't socialise very much and hence we don't feel a bond that we ought to have! sigh, and all this is happening when i was just starting to think that i was going to like s72. we better start thinking of something to solve this problem soon.
anyway... sidetracking a little. i am starting to wonder if i really am a taitai coz kevin and minjie LOVE to suan me about it. i know they are joking and all, but i can't help it when they just go on and on and on. not that i am pissed or anything. anyway, i just asked minjie and he said that i am not a taitai lah, they just like to do it for fun. well, then that's a different story, they can suan all they like, i don't really mind since it's really funny. haha. they keep insisting that taitais go for high tea everyday and and they drink high class english tea from mini porcelain cups. hahaha! super funny!
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i woke up with a slight headache this morning, i think i was worrying too much last night and didn't have a good night sleep.
thanks glori, you are the BEST cousin to have!! <33
i know i shouldn't worry lah coz it isn't my fault, but i can't help thinking of it. i have been trying to convince myself that i should feel happy coz it's quite an incredible feat, but i don't think it is succeeding. my headache is getting more severe. sucks.
anyway, i hope i can get over this worrying phase soon and really celebrate my results. but somehow, i feel that i have to atone for my grades, so i really insist on treating all my close friends to a meal or sth. I INSIST. so just pick a date and we can all go and eat together k?
anyway.. i decided that the first step that i should take is to be open about my o level results and not try to hide it from anyone as though it is a crime or something. i should not feel guilty over it coz i didn't do anything wrong. yes, that should be the way.
anyway, kevin just told me that the whole s72 knows my grade already, so there is no need to conceal what i scored.
anyway... i learnt my lesson - never tell guys your secrets, especially dawei and aaron.
my grandfather is giving me an hongbao!! haha. it's good money, really. my mum says that she also wants to reward me, so i think she will give me an hongbao also.
s72 is seriously full of overachievers. like 4 out of 8 of the ny girls scored 10 A1s, then 2 scored 9A1s and 1A2, and another girl scored 8 A1s and 2 A2s. Anna from Cedar scored 9A1s. then from tchs, 3 out of 6 guys received honourable mention, out of which 2 guys got 9A1s also. the tchs and nanyang pple are SO SCARY. aiyo. but who cares lah, i should learn how to lead a stress free life.
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