finally, the o level results was announced today. all that i had been slogging for for so long has finally come to a close. memories rushed back as i stepped back into the school compound, i realised that i really missed scgs....
hmm.. i don't know how to start.. i am still quite puzzled about my grades lah.. can't believe it actually happened to me.
yar.. this was how the day started for me...
i went to hci for lessons in the morning... we had boring econs presentations which was followed by an intermission of the polar bear game, then judith cheng's OAG gossip session. haha. quite fun.. i wasn't really nervous throughout the day lah.. i guess i am weird.
then went to glori's house with wen, sam and chelly to just update each other about our lives and stuff, yupz, and it was really entertaining.. haha. we really should have more of such updates.
anyway... it was finally 130pm and we headed back to school for the results.
miss heng gave her speech about how we fared... it wasn't too ideal compared to last year, especially for english, SY and SE did very badly. but there were improvements in other subjects lah.. but overall, we didn't do that well. i was quite scared.. but i guess i was prepared for the worst, so it wasn't too bad lah.
so miss heng went on to announce the top scorers.. it was erm. quite or should i say, TOTALLY unexpected. yar. i really cannot believe my score. i am guilty about it. i tied with luyun and chelly.
anyway, i seriously think nobody expected me to get what i got. i am still quite puzzled myself. honestly, i have never done so well in my life. my lowest L1R5 that i had was for prelims and it was 7, so i really didn't expect myself to get what i got. i really didn't wish to tell s72 my grade, but apparently 2 guys already know, i am not going to say who coz it is best that my grade remains unknown. all i can say is that i can make it back to hci.
i know i should have felt happy, but i didn't. in fact, i didn't feel anything and i still don't feel anything. i felt that i have robbed a lot of pple of their grades.. aiyayaya. i know i didn't actually rob it, but i can't help feeling guilty surpassing them suddenly. it isn't quite ethical. besides, i know some pple are quite sore of my grade. like this girl she was like 'waa. become so arrogant now ah?', i think it was meant to by a joke, but i could sense she was quite sore. i don't wanna name her coz it would only complicate matters. anyway, A LOT of pple were crying after they got their grades and i really didn't know what to do. i mean, from my stand, it wasn't very appropriate for me to comfort them, but on the other hand, as a friend, i really wanted to give them a hug to comfort them and tell them that everything is ok. i gave them hugs anyway. hope they feel better.
mrs lim siew jew says that i owe everyone a treat. i think so too. shiqi says that i should give her a treat, i will, so don't worry!
when i called my mum just now to tell her the grades, i could sense that she was kinda stunned. haha. but she was happy lah. i could sense her excitement and disbelief. lolz! anyway, i am glad i did my mum proud. apparently, my uncle and my grandfather called to congratulate me too, but i wasn't in. how news spread...
anyway.. my grades are really not much to be proud of since almost all the nanyang girls and tchs guys in s72 did very well.
i hope everyone remains happy.
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i have survived another miserable day, actually it wasn't all that bad, but i still can't cope academically, so it still sucks. i am still super tired. fatigue is a better word.
we had chem spa today and i am 200% sure that OAG is going to put my name down on her 'stupid students list' after she marks my chem test and prac. she will probably go 'aiyo! this girl! not familiar with her mole concepts! so stupid! how did she get into hci?! better kick her out man!' -_-" i fear the day i get back my test and prac. i hope i can get an A1 for o level chem so that i won't feel so inferior about my chem.
we had cross country today at turf city. actually, i thought we were just going to run to sixth ave and back to hci, but apparently not.. we had to make our way there to turf city to run around that terribly long track that my bro ran last year. but of course, the lazy me managed to get out of cross country in an orthodox and meaningful method - i am in first aid club! haha, so i was doing first aid duty. i thought it was going to be super slack lah and i would have need to do was to treat those people who were having heatstrokes or sth. no big deal about it. but sadly, that was not the case. first aid duty was TIRING. the first half an hour was super slack and kityeng and i got to know a new friend - sabrina from s79. she's from river valley and she's super nice! poor girl - her teacher is OAG!! how unlucky can that get?? i have yet to hear worse. OAG IS A SOV!!!
anyway, as i was saying, first aid duty wasn't fun at all. it was quite serious business; people fainted, had fake asthma attacks, psychological trauma, heart attacks and severe stitches. Almost every 15 mins, there would be someone running to the first aid tent and shouting 'there is a casualty! please hurry there!' and there we go, grabbing bottles of water, the 4kg first aid box and the stretcher to the casualty. but guess what? after sprinting all the way there and lugging all the first aid stuff, we find that our presence is redundant. let me site a few examples:
k, so the first major casuaulty was this. some teacher ran to us and shouted 'there is a casualty 200m from the starting line!' and we DASHED all the way there, panting and half dead. but by the time we reached, we realised that there were ALREADY people tending to the guy who fainted and there was ALREADY a stretcher there. so the poor guy who carried the stretcher and ran all the way did it for nothing. honestly, i really pity that guy who carried the stretcher since before running with the stretcher, he had already ran 4.2km. -_-" quite admirable. well, anyway, so we ran all the way for nothing.
second example, this guy ran to us and said 'someone is having an asthma attack! hurry!'. so me, sabrina and kityeng ran at full speed to the patient.well, it was quite inconvenient to reach her coz we had to crawl over 2 wooden barriers that had a drain in between it, but we tried our best to reach to her in the shortest time possible anyway. ok, so we went through all the obstacles and trouble and finally reached our casuaulty. guess what she said? 'i am ok lah, you all can go back.' ARGH! and i ran all the way for nothing!! ok, and so we went back to the first aid tent. then 5 mins later, another guy ran to us to tell us that someone was having an asthma attack - it was the same girl as before. so we ran all the way again, crawling over the dangerous wooden barriers that was filled with rusty iron nails. then when we got there, she said 'actually, i am really ok lah, you all don't need to come'. ARGH!!!!!!!! kityeng almost flipped. but sabrina was very patient lah.. she showed a lot of concern. anyway, that asthma attack girl decided to go to the ambulance in the end. quite lame lah...
then third example, some china guy had a heart attack 100m away from the first aid tent. so you can guess what happened right? yupz, we RAN AGAIN. that china guy was puking like mad and kityeng didn't have enough tissue, so i had to run back to get more. -more running- sabrina was quite cool lah, she was helping that guy clean his vomit from his mouth - i will never do that... *paranoid* then just at this point in time, someone ran over to us to tell us that across the track, someone was having severe stitch. so we RAN SOME MORE to treat to that girl. but once again, there was nothing we could do coz i mean, what can you do for a stitch man? even our pro first aid senior said we couldn't do anything. so just more redundant running.
k, then things settled down we finally got to rest a little at the first aid tent. there was this WEIRD j2 who was traumatised by the run. O_o no exaggeration, she was REALLY traumatised. there were like 10 people around her who were trying to counsel her?! she kept insisting that she was not fine and that when she fainted, she couldn't see anything - duh when you faint, you can't see anything right?? anyway, we spent about 1.5 hours trying to convince her that everything was fine, but she kept insisting that we took down her father's hp number so that we can call him if something happened to her. talk about paranoid.
yar, so that was first aid duty. quite tiring lah, but i guess anything is better than running cross country. s72 was quite sore that kityeng and i didn't have to run. haha! but anyway, my whole class was damn slack lah - half the class ponned and the other half walked. hahahaha! like seriously, for the guys competitive, the first guy in our class to finish was zhouhao and his number was 244 coz he walked half and ran the other half. then the rest of the guys came in as one of the last few. lolz! the girls also walked 95% of the course. hahaha. gavin actually wanted to visit me at the first aid booth by saying he has a heatstroke so that he can pon running, but too bad, the first aid tent was at the end of the finishing line. haha!
ooh!! there was this really cute sec 1 chinese high guy!! SO CUTE!!! he was ROUND, like really ROUND. and when he ran, it was just like ball rolling across the road!! hahahaha! he had a potbelly. oops! anyway, i took 2 photos of him! hahahaha! then there were these 3 little pigs - basically, they were some lower sec tchs guys who were also round and they were running side by side!! hahaha! damn funny!
then after cross country, we decided to go for dinner...we walked ALL the way from turf city to KAP coz the guys insisted that it was 'very near'. it was not near at all - the walk was torturous. dinner was ok i guess. reached home at about 9pm.
there is both stj and 4sy class party tomorrow. i actually planned to go for the 4sy party, but my mum thinks that i should go for stj since i treated the seniors during jts. sigh... but i really dunno lah. coz if i go to marche first to meet s72, i would be clad in 4sy class shirt, shorts and sandals - super sloppy dressing. AND i will be late for the party. but on the other hand, if i don't go for stj, i won't get to eat marche. sigh. dunno lah - i really want to go to the 4sy party. but i want to eat at marche also! aiyayayaya.
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i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i really really hate the way everything is going now. nothing is going the way i was hoping it would.
nothing at all.
let's start with the basics - i have been SUFFERING and tormented by insomnia for the past week and no matter how hard i try to sleep, i just can't. so every night i sleep at like 2am and wake up at 6? my brain isn't functioning well at all. i hate it.
i have been quite annoyed with tests - econs, chem and bio. so much to study, and yet i will still fail. VERY BADLY. i hate it.
the 'o' level results have been postponed from friday to mon. more suspense. i hate it.
4sy class party is postponed to sat and it clashes with STJ(senior treat junior), so i can only choose one. i hate it.
why is everything turning out like that? it really shouldn't be this way. i should change my life.
i wanna be alone from everyone, isolated both physically and spiritually - leave me alone, life can only get better.
i really tried to make some improvements, but the surrounding doesn't help. the noises and pace keep whirling around me, round and round and round. it never stops, and i doubt it ever will. i thought i have learnt how to deal with it, but apparently not, but i guess i have to try, i must in the end anyway.
my thoughts seem to be in a mess, my brain is dying - it feels like it's being scorched and dried in the sun. i need an oasis. desperately. but it seems like even if i find one, it's just a mirage, an illusion.
do i sound very cynical? pessismistic perhaps? i don't know. life has to go on. that's what everyone says. i know that's the truth, and i will try my best to live like that. it's probably just a transition stage, but at this very moment, i wish i can just throw everything away and sit quietly alone. i really need time like that - but i know it's impossible. well, the thought is simply tempting, but the truth is not.
i kinda regret my decision, i wanna escape.
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haven't been online for almost a week now... all the work is piling in and there are like 3 tests or sth like that next week. dreading next week, especially friday - o level results. i am very worried for my english and bio. i really need to get my A1 for both of them... bio - seriously think i will fall in the b3 range since i screwed up paper 2 and 3. the stupid prawn prac is still a trauma to me and whenever i recall bio prac, i get really nervous and worried. the thought of the bio paper 2 is worse... like all the qns were super alien and i didn't know any of the answers. everyone thought it was difficult and they CLAIM they will fail, but they never do. and what do they get? A1s. why does that always happen? can't they just tell the truth? yar, the questions might have been difficult, but if you were able to tackle the qns, then say so lah. can't stand those pple.
anyway.. i really desperately need my A1s for those two subjects.. hope my geo will get an A1 also. >_< but i shall not get myself all worked up over it - at least not so soon.
anyway... i have decided.. if i can't make it back to hci.. then i might go to rj? hmm.. doesn't sound very logical, but i think i will have a better chance of going to rj... going to nj is quite paiseh since hci and nj are so near... so i might end up going to aj.. aiyayaya.
the past few days have been very tiring, not physically,but mentally. all the lectures and tutorials need so much concentration.. really draining me mentally. and i still can't catch up with my work. damn it.
valentines day was last monday and it was quite cool lah, coz i received quite a bit of stuff. XP
yar.. received quite a lot of nice things, should i list them out? hmm...anyway, i think the most classic present i received was from kevin. he was my v day partner but he totally denied it previously when i asked him. but i kinda found out before v day anyway coz there were A LOT of clues lying around.. haha. he gave me 2 presents - a naruto headband and a pair of nice earrings from bits and pieces. haha. the naruto headband was aaron's suggestion - the guys went shopping together on sat to get their presents. anyway, aaron was quite excited about his choice coz he sms-ed me on sat to tell me that i would get a 'weird present'. haha. it WAS weird. my mum and my sis were laughing like mad. my bro liked it though, he thought it was a very nice present, haha - guys. my bro was quite intrigued by it and he started wearing it and pretending to be kakashi. hahaha! my bro is SO CUTE!! love him to bits!!
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today is my grandma's 80th birthday celebration! cool isn't it? last year it was my granddad's, and his celebration was on a MUCH larger scale. our relatives from hk flew in on a surprise trip just to wish him happy birthday and they also flew in like 80 longevity buns to build a bun mountain for him?! we also threw like dunno how many birthday dinners and all lah, everyone specially flew back from america and england to wish him happy birthday. but this year, my grandm's bday was VERY small scale. we just had dinner at some sichuan restaurant at crown prince yesterday and not everyone was present coz my cousin just got married in australia and my aunty and uncle are there with her. my other cousins couldn't make it back in time also. yar.. and it was super small scale anyway. and the worse thing was - i was LATE. not my family, but just me alone. i felt really bad coz EVERYONE had to wait for me. aiyayaya.
yar, coz i was at the other side of crown prince buying my new phone and i kinda dilly-dallied in the front part and ended up being late... my mum called me to tell me that EVERYONE was waiting and i was super paiseh.. i ran ALL the way to the restaurant and was super flustered. it was quite funny lah coz when i rushed into the rest and asked some waitress where was the vip room, she was like 'we don't have one' and i was like 'damn it, am i in the wrong place??' and started panicing like mad. but it was the correct place lah.. haha.
the food was quite good, had all the normal delicacies... the service was erm - not that great. and the table was a little old. really uncomparable to the restaurant we went to for my granddad's birthday. sigh - bias against women. i bought my grandma a very cute birthday card, hope she likes it.
i got a new phone now! haha - finally! actually, i wasn't allowed to upgrade my phone plan yet coz 21 months was not up, but the manager was nice and decided to let me upgrade anyway. yay! so now i have a new phone with a WORKING keypad. haha. thank you mummy!! love you!
hmm.. just read aaron's blog, so apparently a lot of s72 pple were at orchard yesterday, but i didn't see any.. how sad. looks like our class is quite hip man, haha, coz the past few days whenever i go there, i always see or know that some other s72 person is in the vicinity. funky. lolz.
i counted my hongbao collection last night, this year's collection has been one of my best so far - like REALLY my best. haha. even without my grandma's birthday hongbao money, it still would have been quite good. but of course, it was even better with her hongbao money lah. i shan't say how much coz it is all going into my bank anyway, i seriously cannot resist the temptation of having money with me - i must be thrifty.
i realised that i have been late very often recently - becoming just like pam's clone. i must revert back to my punctual mode. i feel quite bad lah.. always making my family wait for me to come home before they can go and bainian (cny visiting).... i really should plan my time more wisely.
anyway, tomorrow's valentines day and i still haven't solved the problem of lugging all my presents to school.. going to be super paiseh and i seriously seriously hopes nobody steals my presents when i leave it unattended.
anyway, bruno - can you send me the naruto anime online next time i see you?? please! or you can upload on your ftp then i dl from there. i kinda need epi 116,117,120,121. can?? thank you!
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wanted to update yesterday, but i came home at 12am. AGAIN. why do i keep coming home so late?? aiyayayaya. anyway, i was super tired since was out for more than 12 hours. sigh.
went to orchard to meet wen and pam to get valentines day presents. nerdy wen had to leave halfway to go home and mug - serious, she told us. k, then pam and i were left to buy stuff lah. we walked around taka like 5 times?! damn sick of that place, but then again, it's the only place at orchard to get good and nice gifts - i spent a BOMB of gifts. don't wanna mention how much coz my heard will just ache even more.
surprisingly, i bought a lot of presents this year.. one for my angel, my moral, two of my v day partners, some other pple... sorry s72, i dun think i would be getting for anyone coz it's quite bad if i get for only some pple.. next year maybe, when things settle down...
but my gifts are REALLY REALLY NICE!! i personally love them a lot and they aren't cheap k. i specially went around looking for nice stuff. i was thinking last night - how on earth am i supposed to bring my presents to school? it's going to be quite paiseh since i have A LOT of things to bring. and during assembly, pple might steal them! aiyayayaya.. dunno what to do. i can't possibly put all in my bag coz it would get squashed and my bag isn't big enough anyway.. dunno what to do lah...
saw quite a few pple.. saw huiying and her bf, hongzhen, jelene and kevin.
anyway, according to kevin, my v day partner is a GUY! hmm.. initially i kinda enjoyed the idea of a guy being my v day partner coz it would have been quite nice, but now come to think of it, i would much prefer a girl coz girls always give nicer presents. i still don't know which guy is supposed to give me a pressie coz kevin refuses to say, but i guess it's either minjie or dawei. hmm.. minjie reads my blog, but nvm lah, minjie is nice, he won't go around telling pple. XP anyway, i have this really strong feeling that i would end up getting chocolates from this guy. hmm.. i am not really a very big fan of chocolates.. but minjie, if that guy is you, or some other guy that you know, who has already bought the chocs, then nvm lah, just take it that you didn't read this entry. hehe. i bought a little present for that guy in return coz i am SO NICE. *ego*
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today is the second day of chinese new year.. i wanted to update yesterday, but i came home at 12am and was too tired to do anything else.
anyway... yesterday morning, we did the usual new year routine, went to my grandma's house then to my grandfather's house.. collected hongbaos and ate A LOT, i feel damn fat now. OH! i finally got to see my niece!! damn cool! last year i couldn't go to her one month old birthday coz of prelims, so i didn't get to see her. actually, i didn't even know my cousin was pregnant until she gave birth. oops. hehe. anyway, my niece is really cute lah.. and it was quite funny coz my aunties and uncles all become a generation older. i reached home at about 4 plus and went to sleep. hongbao collection this year is quite good, haven't finished collecting yet...but i really need the money anyway coz valentine day is burning a BIG hole in my pocket.
i watched constantine with my family yesterday... caught the 940pm show and we ended up sitting in the second row from the screen.. so basically, i was less than 3m away from a MEGA HUGE screen, and i managed to see all the facial pores of the pple on the screen. lolz! the show was erm.. how should i describe it? lame? not really lah, there were some quirky parts, but it wasn't really very thrilling as i hoped it would be, but then again, maybe it was because i was TOO close to the screen and that's why i didn't enjoy the effects so well. anyway, the plot was a little screwed lah.. yar. my mum says it isn't worth it to watch a second time, so i don't think i wanna watch it with my class.
and today is the second day of the new year.. woke up at 930, and watched 'happy sunday'. HE JUN XIANG IS SO SHUAI!!!!!!!! *dies looking at him* apparently he was super smart in sec school!! hehehehe. anyway...had steamboat for lunch!! super nice!!
i am going to be super busy this weekend.. just now, both charlotte and wen asked me to go out with them tomorrow.. but wen asked me first lah, so i am going with her to orchard. then sat i have to go to my dad's fren's house and then to crown prince for my grandma's 80th birthday. then sun i have to go to my aunty's house for fun lunch - my mum and aunties were SO excited discussing about it yesterday at lunch, they got all animated and stuff.. quite scary how middle aged woman still have so much energy.. haha.
btw, i asked my other cousin who also went to hwachong which class he was from. he was from s33.. so sad.. none of them are my seniors. my bro was being lame and said that maybe hci had a database of all our family members and decided not to put us in the same class. haha.

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i am really really tired now, but i shall not go to sleep because i need to shou ye(remain awake)... ah~ can't even type properly now. sigh.
anyway, cny celebrations at hwachong was quite fun lah, must give aloysius some face.. hehe. went to school as per normal, wearing the hwachong shirt and sc skirt, thinking that everyone would wear their school uni, but it turned out that everyone decided to wear their home clothes and i was one of the two pple in the whole college who wore the hwachong shirt. but it doesn't matter because i don't want to dirty my home clothes.. kinda had charsiew and beef noodle sauce splotches on my shirt.. i should learn how to eat gently.
right after morning assembly and attendance taking, 7 scgs girls just left the school and went back to sc lah, of course i was one of them. this part of the day wasn't as fun as i thought it would be coz it ended up being quite sian lah.
so went back to hwachong for the flee market and to say hi to all the crashers... haha. my class combined with s32 to sell ice cream floats. birong, leesan and germaine are from that class, didn't know that until today.. it was quite lame coz birong and i were trying to convince each other to patronise each other's store. haha, but it turned out to be the same store lah. well, according to aloysius, our ice cream floats looked quite bad. lolz! but i agree lah.. but i shall not complain much since i didn't help to do anything. >.<
yupz, so i kinda patronised the lep sausage store and bought a cheese sausage, it was really good lah, and also damn cheap - only $1. but by the time i decided that i wanted a second one, it was sold out. oh man.
hmm.. let me see, a lot of pple crashed hci today. there was charlotte, yuanyew, felicia, ruoyi, yingying and nat ngoi. quite happy to see most of them lah. but when i saw nat ngoi, i was like 'shit! nat ngoi!', then i immediately turned my back and walked in the opposite direction - so paiseh! anyway, there were A LOT of RJ pple who were blatantly wearing their school badge and uniform, parading through the hci compounds.
i kinda ponned the mass dance and went with chelly and wen to orchard to meet kyna to have lunch at crystal jade. wen and kyna got cheated and they ate some sichuan noodles that had peanut butter soup base - damn sick lah. i ate some knife-sliced beef noodles. not bad lah.
then went out with pam,kyna and grace to buy some stuff. super tired now!!
anyway.. i went to my grandma's house from orchard and took a very short nap until my uncle arrived. reunion dinner wasn't as cold this year, at least i talked to some of my cousins.
reunion dinner this year was really quite pathetic coz there were only 14 pple at the table - we were short of 6 pple. so i shared a table with 3 other cousins lah, two were/is from hwachong, so we kinda had a common topic lah. i finally found out which class aloysius is from - s75. justin was from s79. so, they aren't my seniors.. how sad. it so happened that none of my cousins were from the same class; like glori is from s78, i am from s72 and han was from s74. hmm.. shall ask my other cousin when i see him tomorrow. maybe he is my grand senior! lolz!
apparently, there are 15 bio classes this year in j1.. quite cool, never knew that.
so reunion dinner is finally not as bad as before. at least i said something to my cousins instead of stoning with them at the same table and living room until their parents decided to go home. like really, my family is really really distant. we even have problems remembering each other's names?! incredulous isn't it? my grandfather couldn't remember my cousin's name just now and was looking at me for a hint. hmm.
tomorrow is chinese new year, or rather, in less than an hour, it will be the chicken year. i am not sure what to except out of this coming new year, i do hope things get better along the way and everyone stays happy and healthy!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

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school was quite boring today, except for the fact that i finally got to wear the RGS uniform! haha, borrowed from lingyee!! some pple said i looked cheena. oh well, i thought i looked quite nice in it. hehe. today was quite cool lah, coz 4 pple in my class wore other school's uniform. Zhouhao wore the ACS(b) uniform - thought he looked quite authentic. Elaine wore the St. Nicholas uniform - also not bad. then lingyee wore my scgs uni and i wore the RGS one lah. haha.. but quite cham lah, coz during bio tutorial, mrs cheng was damn sharp and she realised that we kinda swopped uniforms, so she decided to pick on us(pple with wrong uni). yar.. zhouhao kinda anticipated it already, but i thought he was just overanxious coz the other time i wore the cedar uni, she didn't say anything. but it just so happened that today, she didn't feel that nice. she kept picking on zhouhao to ans qns and yar, she also asked me to ans some bio qns that i so unluckily did not do.. but i was smart and i managed to foresee that she was going to call me, so i already had my fren's ans in my hands. hehe. *ingenious*
hmm... singapore is really damn small! i just went cny shopping with pam at orchard and we met like SO MANY pple! like 15 pple?!! O_o crazy isn't it?? let me just list out who we saw in order: tingwen, gillian quah, tessa, miranda, toren, suejean, huiying, martina, my sis, her fren, limin, her butch fren, kevin, and another suejean. yupz! like how coincidental can that get?? we also saw a couple of unknown hwachong and SCGS pple lah..quite cool.. haha. but in the end, pam didn't buy anything coz we were too busy gossiping and getting very high and laughing like mad women.. i think we gave scgs and hwachong a very bad reputation. oops. and a lesson learnt - always empty your school file before going shopping. my legs almost died under the pressure of my legs.. had to sit down whenever possible. damn unfit lah. yar.. so we ended up eating dinner at yoshi and supper at dingtaifung.. feel damn fat now.
it was quite lame lah.. coz it seems like ALL the manicure shops in sg are FULLY BOOKED for both today and tomorrow! so sad!! i wanted to do my nails to badly!! pam also wanted to do her nails damn badly lah.. so we even took a cab from orchard to j8 - spent $10.30?! damn ex! but luckily, we met my sis and her fren, so we divided the cost by four.. but still quite ex lah. anyway, i might end up going to grace to do my nails since her class booth is a manicure shop.. haha.. shall see her skills first.
quite excited about tomorrow! cny celebrations at hwachong! i heard it is one of the most celebrated major events of the year... and a lot of pple are crashing.. quite a smart choice to crash tomorrow, will be damn chaotic and fun! lolz! so far, i know four pple are crashing.. can't wait to see them tomorrow!

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today was our first class party and we had it at kevin's house.. the whole concept is quite lame coz if you think of it, we are only 1 month old? haha. anyway, anna and i reached kevin's place at about 4 coz i told anna to take her time and we ended up meeting at about 3 instead of 2.
my mum rocks! the other night when i was just about to sleep, she suddenly came into my room to ask me if i wanted to change my phone!! how cool can that get?? yupz! and i get to change to another samsung phone! yay! i was supposed to change it today, but my previous phone plan doesn't expire till v. day, so i guess i shall get a new phone on that day if my mum is free. can't wait!!
anyway.. the initial part of the class party was damn boring lah.. pple were either playing comp, playstation or mahjong. and i didn't know how to play any, so i just sat at one corner and started sms-ing pam who was stuck at dramafest practice. i really wanted to go home then.
but, things got better lah.. we started to play heart attack(the pregnant version) and gavin ended up exploding after 4 months of pregnancy! haha! it was damn funny lah! i didn't get pregnant! lolz! i was really quite lucky yesterday lah, coz when we were playing the number game to help finish the food, i didn't lose, so i didn't have to eat the beehoon. lucky me! the polar bear game that we played subsequently was also quite lame lah, but quite fun.
hmm.. LK(teacher) came to join us.. it was quite weird lah coz we were grilling shiqi about ziyao... and he didn't really understand what was going on. but he is really a lagger king lah.
regarding the latest update about the gruelling debate issue...SIGH. yesterday, initially zhouhao was nice enough to volunteer to be the third debater, but when anna and i tried to confirm with him, he said it would be better if we stuck to the original 3 pple..we agreed lah.. this is really ironic because i mentioned that i didn't want to sabo anyone coz it isn't nice, but in the end, anna and i tried to sabo zhouhao to do the reply speech. yar.. but he found out about our conspiracy and got quite mad. i am not sure if he was really mad or just faking it lah.. coz he suddenly just turned and went to sit at a corner to sms. yar... then anna and i had to say sorry. and in the end, we had to to 'long jiam pas' to decide who was to be the reply speaker. and guess who that lucky person is? ME.
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i really hate debate. damn it. today, when anna and i told zhouhao that he had to debate again with jiangyue and pheywa, of course he didn't agree. yar... he insisted in drawing lots. but like duh, he cheated. -_-" i wasn't present when they drew the lots coz i couldn't wait to eat the minced pork noodles.. hehe. anyway, apparently zhouhao wrote three lots that said 'haha, you're in' and two other lots that said 'you're safe'. then before the lots were folded, he grabbed the 'you're safe' lot and ran away. damn lame. yar.. then anna grabbed the other good lot and ran away too! oh wow. but of course when anna came to tell me that i was in the debate after drawing lots and that she and zhouhao were safe, i got suspicious lah, luckily pheywa came and told me how they cheated. yar. then zhouhao went to create more lots and then by the time i went back, he was like 'here's the last lot'. of course i didn't accept and i was running away from him. he thought it was quite funny though. funny meh? guys.
yar, then somehow, zhouhao and i started arguing who was to be in the team. after math lecture, he was trying to convince me that i was the best person out of the three to do it coz i only debated once(i was chairwoman) while the two of them had already debated twice. i mean, it's true lah, but it really wasn't my fault that i wasn't given a chance to debate in the first round. yar... so i was very annoyed and super flustered because i couldn't think of any other excuse to get out of debate. so before bio prac, i was like 'i am not going to be in the debate team, just going to pon that day. i don't care. try me' and i think i had this really pissed look on my face coz just now zhouhao didn't come and settle this problem with me after school, but just sms-ed me to say sorry for making me pissed. sigh. i mean, yar, i was a little pissed lah, but i guess it was more of being flustered and DESPERATE to get out of debate than being pissed. i think i made him feel really guilty because he kept apologising. but really, it's ok already. i understand how felt this morning when anna and i tried to sabo him into staying in the debate team, it's the same as how he and anna were trying to sabo me into debate. so i totally understand why he was so desperate to make me stay in the debate team... i probably would have acted the same way as him. yupz, so i decided that it really isn't nice to sabo anyone like that, must always consider other pple's feelings. so i kinda of a few ways to achieve a win-win situation. the ideas are quite lame, but i guess if we really work the details, it would pull through. hmm.. maybe those you read my blog can choose which is the best way for all 3 of us to get out of debate..
1) find out which class we are debating against and try and convince them to give up also. so in this case, if both our classes give up, then we don't lose anything. but if the other class finds out that we dun wanna debate, they might just insist that we have a walkover and they win. this might just be our last resort.
2)find out when is the debate and 3 of us can fall sick on the debate day. hopefully, we can push it to tuesday, so that if i pon, i don't miss much... but i miss PE!! but it would be super obvious if we all pon, so i was thinking, i can say i have very bad cramps in the morning, then can't go to school. then anna can fall sick due to exhaustion from softball and zhouhao can get a sore throat. haha, quite realistic ailments since it will be after chinese new year. yar, so we can't carry on the debate with just pheywa and jiangyue.
i really don't like the feeling of being up there in the centre of the class and trying to say something stupid that the other team would pick out and tackle you offensively with. the feeling is just too helpless and solitary. never wanna go up there.
stayed back to watch hcc(jieying) do her chicken fists, but couldn't find her... quite disappointed...i doubt i will do any work tonight lah... this is bad.. keep procrastinating. going to ntuc later to do some new year shopping! so fun! haven't been there since the beginning of the year!

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i really wanted to update yesterday, but i was too busy writing my stupid debate script. i hate debate. really sucks like mad.
i think i mentioned in my previous entries that i somehow, got sabotaged into being one of my class speakers and it is really terrible since i can't argue for nuts. anyway, there waws much confusion about our motion and who we were up against. on monday, LK(civics tutor) told us that our motion had something to do with beauty pageants, so we did all the research and had our pts all assigned. then somehow, we kinda found out that our motion was wrong, and we were supposed to be be doing sth about chemical castration; it's just about injecting some drug into sex offenders to reduce their sex drive. yar, quite weird lah.. anyway, so we had only about 2 days to do our research and plan our speech and all, it was TERRIBLE! i stayed up till 12 last night, trying to stretch my damn script. I HATE DEBATE. like REALLY HATE IT!
our opponents was a humans class and they had this really pro RGS debater who obviously won best speaker. i was super nervous, couldn't concentrate at all during bio lecture, so i have no idea what's going on for proteins. damn it. and when i was saying my speech, i was kinda trembling and the worst thing was that i lost my line halfway reading my script. >.< and the proposition kept raising POIs, damn annoying.
and our class obviously lost because our speech was not concise enough and we didn't emphasise our main pts, so it was just like some long essay that we read out. quite lame. we lost by 4 marks... actually, we aren't supposed to know which class won, but anna and i managed to peep at the score sheet. hehe.
i simply refuse to take part in the second round of debate. Pheywa, Jiangyue and Zhouhao can do it, everyone will be happy. hehe. of course anna and i will also be happy, but i think some one ELSE will be ECSTATIC! lolz.
slacked in school just now after debate.. my mortal finally replied a letter after 3 weeks. sigh.
i realised that i have become a gossip monger. this is really bad. i shouldn't gossip so much. hehe. but everyone in my class is creating scandals like mad and i really MEAN MAD, especially the guys, they simply LOVE it. they are always armed with their camera phones and always secretly taking photos of 'couples' together and showing it to everyone else. lolz! but i should stop scandalising anyway. hehe. MUST SHUT MY MOUTH.
i am quite dead for my school work, haven't revised my lecture notes and i simply can't understand what the lecturers are mumbling about. i haven't been doing any work for the last few days because i was too caught up with debate and now that is has come to a temporary close, i am not sure what i wanna do tonight. i have 2-3 projects on hand, and they have datelines that are quite near. damn.
i am super tired now, but i think i should do some work lah... but i doubt i can concentrate.
there is chem and bio prac tomorrow.. going do die.
valentine's day is this monday, not sure what to get for pple... i don't think i have the time to go and buy it anyway. i must quarantine myself at home... my mum thinks that i am busier than my 'o' level year. haha.
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