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Monday, January 31, 2005
yupz, tomorrow is wen's 17th birthday, so we went out today to celebrate... we were supposed to watch 'finding neverland', but cine doesn't have it. cine is getting really bad, it offers so limited movies.. like the other time, we wanted to watch 'ocean's twelve', but they didn't have it, so we had to go over to PS to watch it... damn lame.. anyway, glori insisted that we shouldn't watch 'finding neverland' because she just watched it yesterday and she didn't want to waste another $8.50 for a supposedly snail-pace and boring movie. kityeng said it was good though.. hmm.. i guess if i have the time, i don't mind watching it, there really aren't many good movies around lately, it seems like the same movies have been in the cinemas for over a month now... anyway, we didn't watch a movie in the end lah.. coz we were to hungry, so we went to swensons.
oh! how can i forget this! finally met up with kyna today!! after like more than a month since we last met on her birthday! super happy! but i would have been happier if stupid chelly could go. her parents are apparently SUPER PISSED at her. hmm. and the usual irresponsible chelly, didn't call us until we called her to verify the meeting details. sigh. yar, so we are all quite pissed at her lah, nobody wanted to hold her bean baby during the neoprint shot. haha. we are all immature brats.
wen finally gave us our christmas presents after one month... she was supposed to give it to us on the first day of school, but school ended at 5, so we couldn't go and meet kyna. yar... and wen insisted that she would only give us our presents when we were all present, too bad for chelly then. the present is REALLY cute! haha. trust wen to have good taste for once. lolz. she gave all of us a bean toy each... the kind that has different character and she sewed an alphabet behind each toy, mine was a 'z'. i must remind you that she did top home econs in sec one.. HAHA, just can't get over this one! anyway, wen gave me a chef bean(which is currently my display pic) and sam had a bride bean that only had hair on one side of her head, haha! glori had a queen bean and kyna had erm.. i can't remember. hehe. wen gave herself an inventor bean. ching's bean is damn funny, but it's quite apt lah. i can't remember chelly's bean also.. hehe. anyway, wen really deserves the inventor bean this time coz her idea was really good lah. the alphabets she sewed behind the beans formed the word 'azure'. cool sia. lolz. yar, so we were busy taking photos with our new beans. btw, the service at PS swensons sucks! this stupid waitress rolled her eyes at me when i asked her to refill my water. whatever. then when i tried to fill in the feedback form, the manager was peering over my back and trying to see what i wrote, he was like 'why? our service very bad is it?'. hello?! like i would say 'yes, your service sucks' in his face right? so i just kept quiet, hoping that he would be smart enough to realise the awkwardness, but no, he had to repeat his qns. terrible terrible service. kyna wanted to find out what was that waitress' name, but in the end we didn't lah, too paiseh.
oh! at action city,we found the 7 dwarfs! it was about $50 for one set. we wanted to buy it, but in the we didn't.. also dunno why we didn't. i think it was because we realised that ching couldn't pay us, or rather, she wouldn't pay us. haha. wen went hysterical about the ee-yo bolster, she kept hugging it and laughing. talk about bad taste. anyway, we haven't bought her a present yet coz the amplifier is too ex and she doesn't want a watch. she says she will think about what she wants... once again, we shall give a belated birthday present. this is almost becoming a tradition. sigh.
we took neoprints at action city.. the machine was damn lousy, the printing quality was super poor lah.. we took it with our beans! haha.
i should stop thinking about what i have just landed myself in... no point really, need to concentrate. damn it.
oh, bread talk is SUPER LAME! like SUPER SUPER LAME. they are having this new series of bread for chinese new year. they have a 'golden rooster bread' that is just a normal pork floss bun with some red paper as the cock's head thingy.. i dunno what you call it.. hehe. and they have this taco yuan bao bread, which is basically this bread that is shaped as an ingot. kyna and wen were stumped when i pointed the poster to them. so i guess this is the type of innovation that the gvt wants to promote eh? singapore's future is SO bright then. haha. got to watch apprentice now.. byebye.
(emilia) blogged at 2:07 PM

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Sunday, January 30, 2005
i feel really guilty today... i have so much homework, but i still went out the whole day. i really was supposed to be stuck at home bia-ing(muggin) my homework.. but oh well. feel really bad.
today we had to go back to school to paint some class banner thing for chinese new year, actually i didn't wanna go coz i wanted to do my homework, but anna and i decided to just go and see lah, coz if we don't go, it would be quite bad. yupz, so we had a plan - to go late and leave early if it was boring. haha. we were supposed to reach there at 10, but i left the house at ten and only arrived there at 1030. anna reached at 10. sigh. anyway, we only started painting at about 11 and i was literally slacking throughout the whole painting process; didn't even touch the brush or paint.... just stood around with anna, flipped through magazines and started observing people from the second floor. haha... oh yar, the 5 slackers - me, anna, zhouhao,daryl and minjie hid on the second floor and started to play cards... hehe. aaron was being slack too and was giving lame comments and doing stupid things like running away with daryl's slipper. haha. damn funny. zhouhao was also super slack, he didn't touch the paint brush at all, and he came even later than me. haha. i realised that he is quite nice lah, not as dao as i thought he was.... just quite lukewarm to new surroundings i guess.... anna and zhouhao were trying to teach me bridge, so i kinda 'know' how to play it now.
we painted until about 2+, then we went down to coro for lunch until about 330. my mum was quite shocked that we had such late lunch... she thinks i will get severe gastric. -_-" my mum is super paranoid. yar... then we kinda split cos kevin said he didn't wanna go home, so he suggested going to bt. timah plaza to play pool. the girls didn't want to go, i think they went home to study. sigh. i feel even worse now. but pool was quite fun though.
i was wearing the SC(SCGS) pe shirt, so the guys told me to change into my hwachong shirt coz if not i won't be allowed entry. so i changed to KAP, but at the pool place, it said we were not to be in any school uniform, so zhouhao whipped up two LARGE shirts from his bag and offered them to me. i would have drowned in them; i should add that he is 1.85m. anyway, i was like 'er.. just go in and see what they say first lah..' so i went in and sat down, then this pool aunty came to me and told me that i couldn't wear the hwachong shirt. she is damn corrupt lah, she told me to turn the shirt inside out so she can't see the school logo. haha. i looked quite bad with the shirt label sticking out, but i guess it is better than a drowning shirt. hehe.
so anna and i were the only two girls who went with the other four guys - zhouhao,daryl,kevin and dawei. anna and i didn't even play, we just kinda watched them play and spent our time chatting. it really was incredibly insightful. anna and i were discussing about dumb stuff of our sec school and what we thought of each other's schools. apparently, cedar was 6th in rank last year... quite incredible. then the guys decided to join in coz we were talking and laughing super loudly. k... so i shall write what everyone thinks of SCGS:
anna: very cheena coz we are singapore CHINESE girls' school. very cheena also because of our uniform.
daryl: quite angmoh right? the uniform is damn stylish. [O_o]. got some girls quite chio lah.
dawei: angmoh.. chiobus.
kevin: angmoh
yupz... and so, i can conclusively say that guys are really quite superficial. yupz. and apparently, according to daryl, MGS has the chioest girls because they have an AURA around them - so they are all very elegant and nice. 'aura' - anna and i don't sense any. oh yar... and supposedly, the MGS uniform is very attractive?! O_o isn't it just a sailormoon uniform?? guys. sigh.
the discussion was really quite fun lah, coz we were talking about what we thought of each other's school. too bad there was only chinese high as the guys representative...
anna was quite sad coz when she asked what we thought of her school, all the guys were like 'er.. i don't really know much about cedar, quite low-profile right?' haha.. she almost peng-ed(fainted). lolz. but cedar is really not in the main circle of schools, so i guess we don't really talk about them.
haha, when the guys asked what we thought of chinese high.. i didn't know what to say. hehe. i mean i can't possibly say 'hairy legs' right? quite mean. so i just went with the norm - 'muggish, nerdy, guai(obedient), etc'. they kinda accepted it. hehe.
so the guys played until about 6, then we went home. daryl had to go to taka for some family dinner, so i took 171 with him to far east to change a bus to my grandma's house. yar, daryl was telling me about how his school system works, some consortium thingy.. quite cool. yupz. went to my grandma's house for dinner.
talking to kevin now. another insightful conversation. hehe.
(emilia) blogged at 2:47 PM

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Friday, January 28, 2005
i really CANNOT believe this! my whole entry just got deleted AGAIN. *going to explode*
anyway, as i just typed a few minutes ago...
i am starting to like s72 coz things are getting better each day, there aren't so many private jokes going around and i know who to hang out with - basically, any girl coz everyone likes to hang out with just anyone. yup, that's how easy-going my class is. simply great. everyone is starting to open up more and more. and my class is great also coz everyone isn't a mugger, or at least i think so... everyday after school, there would be at least 6 people slacking at the class bench playing cards or just chatting. hehe. but we still do our work, so i guess we strike a balance.
today i was super excited to go to school coz i wanted to verify my answer with anna. she refused to tell me who the female counterpart of her prototype scandal was and i spent my whole night eliminating girls to see who fitted the bill. and i guessed it correctly! smart me! *ego*
kityeng was super funny today. she was super traumatised when i told her the the new scandal victim's name started with 'k'. haha, she kept bugging me and anna to tell her the truth and her expression was super funny!
i still don't really understand chem. the stupid chem tutor/old woman doesn't help. i tried to read the notes just now and i think i am starting to get the grasp of it, but i haven't attempted the tutorial... doubt i can do it. shall try over the weekend.
aaron is suggesting to go to the birdpark for cip this weekend. i have always wanted to go to the birdpark with wen and the rest, but they keep telling me that i will die in the sun there. that's quite true, but i haven't been there for quite some time. apparently doing cip there is damn slack, just stand around and pretend to feed birds. hehe.
my whole class knows of Hsu Chun Mei(some ugly taiwanese woman) aka Phua Jieying and jeffery is super enthu about updating every detail about it on his blog everyday, just read his latest entry, quite funny.
got my econs grouping today and i like my group, haha, probably because i like almost everyone in my class, so i don't really mind who is in my group. so the lucky people to be able to work with me are gavin, pheywa, jiashee and zhiyu. =p
talking to kyna now!! haven't talked to her for about a month! her class has 4 girls and 15 guys. wow...anyway, wen's birthday is this mon, but we are celebrating on sun afternoon, so we can finally get to meet!! i wanna watch alfie, but chelly wants to watch 'shall we dance' - terrible show; shiqi fell asleep after 5 secs watching pam's pirated dvd. haha.
there are chem and bio prac tomorrow... really dreading it.
thanks to shiqi and pamela, my secret blog is no longer secret. wow, so much for the definition of 'secret'. anyway, but i guess i was planning to disclose this blog sooner or later to my class, just that i didn't expect it to be so soon. i was planning something like after the first 3 months... hmm... but i guess everything is just pushed forward then.
i am quite surprised bruno still reads my blog and even leaves comments.. haha. i still REMEMBER i had to bug you to read my previous blog and sign my guestbook last time. lolz so i specially decided to do the chinese-to-english translation for you when i type my future entries. so how about this? my translation is how i shall repay you for the mulan song k? school sounds terrible for an ultimate slacker like you, but let me tell you this, i have been reaching home at about 7 since school reopened. but i guess the difference is, i have fun coming home late while you are sloggin in school. lolz. take care lah and read naruto!

(emilia) blogged at 2:17 PM

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Thursday, January 27, 2005
my class is really FULL of scandals!! like REALLY a lot!
scandals by Scandals club so far
1)daryl and shiqi
2)daryl and yifang
3)daryl and phey wa(new)
4)gavin and lenette
5)dawei and jelene
6)zhouhao and jelene(new)
yupz, and most of them are created by aaron and jeffery, the only two members of the scandals club. they update about all the scandals in every blog entry, so the whole class reads it all the time. lolz! the whole class is really into it lah! my class is getting nicer. XP
anyway, econs test today was ok lah. i heard it was much easier than previous years, so that's good.
i ponned both first aid club and taekwando today... quite bad, but i stayed back until about 630 to slack with people. i am super tired now.
there is debate tomorrow and i just typed my script.

(emilia) blogged at 2:03 PM

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
damn it! my whole entry just got deleted! now i have to retype everything.
anyway, today's my mum's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! yupz, we went out for dinner last night and me, my bro and sis decided to give her lilies. apparently, my dad has never given her flowers, quite sad. i had to take a bus home with a bouquet of liles, quite embarrassing, especially when a swarm of CJC people came up the bus. this smelly cat high boy sat next to me and there was this despo CJ girl who was desperate to take a picture of him and pestered him throughout the ENTIRE journey. she tried to tickle him? he is kinda soaked with sweat?! sick! and he kept moving into the seat to get away from the girl, so his smelly shirt kept touching me. damn sick. anyway, my mum loved the flowers so the price was 'worth' it. $50 for 3 lilies. damn ex lah.
yupz, i am supposed to give credit to bruno who was super nice and helped me to find and dl the original mulan reflection mp3 and saving it on his ftp so that i can link it to my site. YAY! THANKS! XP
regarding my class issue, i guess it's gonna stay kinda stagnant, so i will just try to like my class, they are really nice people lah, quite funny too. i got quite freaked out that day when phey wa suddenly asked me what i thought about s72 and whether if i thought our class was starting to form cliques. i thought she found my secret blog. *freaky* but apparently not lah, it just so happened that they realised it too and they were discussing about this issue that day after most people left at JTS. phew.
oh! most people said they like my new hair and it's nice! yay!
and did i mention that i am chairwoman for my CT's debate? haha! sounds damn pro right? but actually, i am just an amcee and timekeeper lah. hehe. i think i was really lucky coz when LK(lagger king - my CT tutor) told me that i was chosen for class debate, i was like 'huh? cannot lah! i always get confused with my own argument' and he believed me. haha! so he chose 11 pple to split into two groups, with me being the slacker 'debater' who does not take any stand. lolz. yupz, so during debate discussions i can choose to hang out with either group and just slack there. i am simply the ultimate slacker.
there is an econs test this wed and i simply can't concentrate when studying for it. super annoying! shiqi said it isn't counted, but my classmates say it is, so i think i will just study as much as my brain can absorb, which is not very much now. i hope i don't fail.
(emilia) blogged at 1:46 PM

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Sunday, January 23, 2005
i am really very tired now and my eyes are half closed again. honestly, if i didn't have a blog, i would be in bed right this moment. responsibility. i told rachel that i have a secret blog. she's the first person i ever told, well, apparently she has a secret blog too! haha, so she has two blogs! why did i tell her in the first place? i guess i felt comfortable.
we had JTS at fish and co just now. the food took quite long to come and the service was terrible, like real terrible.
eg 1. when i reminded the waitress for my glass of water, she was like 'YES! i know!'
eg 2. when i tried to return the menus to the waitress, she was like 'YES! later!'
eg 3. they shoved a glass of water to kit yeng and said 'we don't have enough, so you must share with your friend'
eg4. they eavesdropped on my senior's conversation and tried to join in by giving their comments.
eg5. they chased us out of the restaurant right after we finished eating.
like hello??! what happened to consumer soveriegnty? consumer is king. and when we tried to complain about their terrible service, they just gave a pathetic apology and shoved us some discount coupons. if i had a brain, i would not go back.
this world is really very small. i seem to be connected to everyone in my class.
eg 1. last week at PS, i met joanne tang; she was out with her OG. apparently, her OG friend is dawei's twin sister.
eg 2. when we crashed RJC, Charlotte met up with Kevin and they are actually primary school friends.
eg 3. i just met eunice(from SC) at PS and she was going to Zhouhao's church thingy.
eg 4. shiqi supposedly knew daryl since sec 2. he was on her msn list, but she deleted him coz she thought he was just a nobody.
scary isn't it? singapore is just too small to lead a simple, decent life.
anyway, after eating just now at fish and co, rachel and i went for a walk. i kinda told her how i felt about the class, and she understood what i said. thanks rachel. elaine is really nice too. i really like the quiet people in my class. =P
i left early while everyone else was playing shoot,shag or marry. quite a lame game that doesn't bond us at all. but i got to know four new seniors - jiaying,eileen,milly and yue xin. nice people. they think that my class has better looking guys than theirs. hmm... ok lah. i think i like the guys in their class better, they look quite cute. XP my seniors gave nicknames to 3 guys in my class.
zhouhao - gaoda meinanzi
kevin - mega meinanzi
dawei - i can't really remember this one. but sth like strong pretty boy.
totally hilarious!! i almost died laughing just now. my seniors think that dawei is very manly and strong!!! *rolls on floor* i like my seniors. lolz.
and yes! the most important part of my update! i straightened my hair!! it's called magic straightening and i did it at jean yip. my mum was really quite reluctant to let me do it coz she thinks it's a total waste of money. but in the end, i decided to insist and she allowed me to do it. love you mum! i got a new stylist to do my hair - caroll. she's super nice and she totally understands my wavy hair predicament coz she told me she has wavy hair too! she's definitely better than kenzo!! yup, so i have a new hair style now! i think i look like a japanese, but that's ok lah, i am used to that comment. my classmates said it was nice, so that's great. i have a sloped fringe, something i always wanted but could never have coz of my natural wave. i am supposed to get the hair iron thing.. hopefully mum can get it from er yi soon.
(emilia) blogged at 3:53 PM

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Friday, January 21, 2005
another safe day. nobody seems to have discovered my secret blog yet, so let's keep it that way.
went for my mum's staff lunch at marriott hotel today... it was international buffet. the food was quite good, especially the BREAD PUDDING and chicken,winter melon soup. really liked it a lot. but i didn't get to eat that much or go for second helpings of each dish coz i was scared my fat tummy would show when i stood up >_<
lunch was quite akward coz my mum sat with her staff on one table and the rest of the family members sat on another table. the dads talked of course, mainly over business and stocks. my dad was trying to be friendly and nice to me in front of the other people.
anyway, i really wanted to cut my hair just now... my mind was so occupied by it the whole day that i couldn't read my econs notes at all. i simply couldn't decide if i wanted to cut my hair of not. if i were to cut my hair, should i rebond it? i really couldn't decide. i have been spending too much money, i think i must have spent at least $600 since the hols and i feel really bad about it. i know money doesn't come easy, but i really didn't mean to spend so much. i love you mummy! my mum agreed to let my straighten my hair tomorrow. apparently it is at a promotion rate of $88, but it is still quite ex since the price doesn't include cut, so in total, i would be spending about $110+ on my hair again. i feel really bad. but i really can't stand my thick waves. i must remind my mum to borrow the hair straightener from er yi.
now that i am quite convinced to straighten my hair, the next question is.. what type of hair style should i have? should i leave it to kenzo? or should i have a chic one? i really don't know. why am i so indecisive? i was never like that. my heart feels very uncertain; i think i have lost my direction. pam has agreed to cut her hair with me tomorrow. thanks pam!
pheywa and dawei just asked me if i wanna meet the rest of the class earlier tomorrow at about 2pm to just hang out. i decided that i don't wish to belong to the enthu gang, it's just too much and it isn't really me to say the same things as them. we seem to have on different levels of thoughts. i mean.. on thurs, they were teasing kevin for loving to eat cheese cake, while the rest of them only at cheap butter and pandan cake. lame isn't it? i have been eating cheese cake since 8 and nobody has said anything about it, it is really quite normal, no need to make a big hoohaa about it. oh well. i should get used to it, they are going to be my classmates for two years and it doesn't really matter what they say lah.. they are quite nice people. my class people seem to like s72, that's great. i like s72 too, but not that much i guess. i should hang out with the fun girls like elaine, kityeng,rachel,zhiyu,jiashee,etc. and just stay with them, their jokes are much more comprehendable.
thinking about my class, i just have to remember about the class clowns- daryl,gavin and aaron. they are really very funny people... quite sanba too, but that's great isn't it? haha, have you seen guys who are so enthu about creating scandals and splashing it with evidence all over their blogs? well, it seems to be a trend in my class. jeffery has VERY good scandals! he just created the funniest one ever! gavin and lenette! jeff splashed pictures of lenette all over his blog! lolz! i love funny people.
i just bought mulan 2!! super happy! mulan had been my jingshenzhishu(mental support) for my 'o's and i would never have made it without the show. i am now waiting for my bro to pack his bag and sis to bathe so that we can watch it together. but i am quite sleepy now.
i really miss sc now, especially the people. meeting felicia,shiqi,heather,pam and birong tomorrow.
there is JTS at fish and co tomorrow, hopefully, i will start to like my class and feel belonged to it again. my seniors are very nice people.


(emilia) blogged at 9:29 PM

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Thursday, January 20, 2005
this is the second entry that i am typing today. i am quite groggy now and my mum just told me that i look like my eyes are half closed already, that's exactly how i feel now - sleepy.
i was reading the blogs of people from s72 and it was really quite insightful.
i read kevin's, kit yeng's and minjie's blogs yesterday and it really allowed me to see the other side of them that i really don't see at school, especially the guys, since i don't have the habit of talking to them very much.
today i read zhouhao's blog. i am quite freaked out. like really freaked out. i haven't said more than 5 sentences to him in my whole life and i think i would like to keep that record stagnant. i mean, before i read his blog, i thought he was quite normal and ordinary. just a tchs squasher who has mutant genes that gave him his mutant height - 1.85m. he doesn't seem to talk very much, but i thought that he was just tired or something. but apparently not.
his blog entries are super cheem, just like a descriptive essay, so i was quite put off by it when i tried to read it last night. but when i scanned through the archives, trying to look for details about his gf, i realised another side of this quiet guy. he is a very devote christian and an extreme mugger. i really can't believe it. his entries are either about his church gatherings or about his worries for o levels, he has multiple entries about his analysis of what grade he thinks he can get for each subject and detailed description of each o level paper he attempted, apparently, they were all easy to him. i really don't think he should be that over-confident, but maybe it really was THAT easy for him... he looks so physically fit and all, but after reading his blog, i realised that he is actually a mentally weak person. sometimes i see him walking alone, drifting away from the rest of the class, or just sitting alone, not wanting to have any human contact. i feel quite sad for him.. but i don't wish to talk to him... there is no common topic between us and i don't even know him personally. hopefully, he will snap out of it soon coz life will definitely have its ups and downs, it really is up to us to decide how to deal with it.
Aaron agrees with me on that. i was chatting with him just now and i also discovered a new side of him. in class, he seems like the class clown with a straight face, but incredibly amusing comments about things around us, but online, he seems different, just like another person all together. no doubt he still says funny things and all, but he can get quite serious too. accordinging to him, he smiles at difficulties and deals with them openly. he hasn't been depressed since sec 1. that's really cool and i wish i can learn from him.
huizhong is super super super nice!! always caring for others and putting others' interests before herself.
i am still trying to understand the people in my class. i should start to observe people to see what they are really like. blogs are really useful in this case.
(emilia) blogged at 11:09 PM

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this is a private diary and i wish to keep it that way. i was stupid just now and i almost told everyone about my secret blog. luckily i realised it in time, otherwise i would be in deep trouble. anyway, i hope this diary will never be discovered or unearthed by anyone i know; it should just be secluded at an isolated corner of the internet realm. most people wouldn't think that i have a blog because i closed my previous two blogs a long time ago. i told myself that i would not create a new blog, but here i am creating a new blog to express my feelings and thoughts. it just seems that there are a lot of things to remember and a secret blog would be just great.
school has started for about three weeks now and my class is quite nice. well, most people in my class think that we are bonded and all, but from my definition of bonded, i still think we have a long way to go. 4sy is just uncomparable.
everything is new and i am adapting to my changes, i thought i was doing fine until today.
7 of my class people stayed back to design some CNY stall banner; 3tchs guys and 3nygh gals and of course, me, being the odd sc girl there. at first, i thought everything was going to be ok, but i guess not. i am now feeling guilty and i am starting to have second thoughts about myself and how well i thought i was fitting in and all. nope, it is definitely not the culture shock i am suffering from, chinese isn't very foreign to me.
just now my other classmates kept suan-ing kevin and yifang, i mean, i am not saying that it is bad or anything, but they kinda kept harping on private jokes that i didn't understand. i don't think they realised that i felt left out or anything, neither do i think that they were doing it on purpose. i really don't wish to mention names. huizhong is super nice and i mean super nice.
i am starting to wonder.. are things going to remain like this? the enthu people belong to those two schools, and the rest are just laid-back and reserved. where should i stand? i feel more comfortable with the quiet people, but at the same time, i wish i could share the enthu people's jokes.
i was pondering just now on the bus ride home. where exactly do i belong? where should i stand? i mean.. in sc, i didn't belong to just one clique, i belonged to a lot of cliques and i was dedicated to all of them and of course, i loved them all. i really miss all of them and i wanna get back together with them, away from whatever there is now. i really miss you guys. although i still see you around i school sometimes, it just isn't like old times when we would hang out together and chat and laugh like mad. now, we only have time for a few words, to exchange how we are getting along and all. time is an obstacle and so are the people around us.
having guys in my class is fun, but i would much prefer not to have them. habit? maybe. i miss the days where we could just talk loudly over girls' stuff and laugh without having to consider the opposite gender. i doubt i will ever get used to talking to a group of guys, i just don't feel like talking when there are so many guys. i mean, talking to just one guy is totally fine with me, but once there are a few, it is a totally different matter. am i just weird?

(emilia) blogged at 7:48 PM

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